I stopped smoking in early February because I felt my health was deteriorating rapidly from smoking. I rolled my own smokes and smoked about 20 a day. So I got used to a lot of nicotine. But I didn't feel well.
When I did quit, I knew it was for good. This did not fare well with my system. I crashed, big time. I couldn't concentrate at work. I was miserable all the time. I didn't crave smokes but I did crave nicotine. As time went on, there seemed to be no improvement. Apparently, I had traded my mental health for physical health. Both are vital.
I ate tons of nicorette lozenges. They did little or nothing for me. Then, a post on reddit by someone who had just quit smoking caught my eye. A responder to that post had a detailed description of e-cigs along with links to an ego-t kit along with accoutrements (extra attys, tanks, batteries, juice) needed to get started. I followed his instructions. 3 days later, I had an ego-t in my hand. I quickly assembled it, with shaky hands. It puffed "smoke" (the battery had some charge to it.)
I inhaled and almost immediately all the heebie-jeebie bad stuff went away. Can this be? I took another hit. I felt even better. How had I missed these devices? I think the main thing was I had heard of them but didn't really believe they worked or something.
That was 3 weeks ago. I now have my pv the way I like it, lots of good juice on the shelf, steeping, And I'm back to my old self except that I don't hesitate to have a puff ( I always did with analogs knowing all the crap that went along with the nicotine dose).
Bottom line, I need nicotine. I need it quickly. I also need something to fiddle with and my ego-t is perfect. Especially now that I'm experimenting with dripping. I wake up, not with dread of another day without smokes. I look forward to having exactly what I need when I need it. I sneak-vape at work and seem to be able to focus much better and I get a lot more done.
E-smokes are part of my life now and I will do all I can to keep it that way.
I love your post!