Hi Everyone,
I live in Northern Kentucky and I am so grateful that I was saved. My relationship with God has not always been easy. I grew up in a home that was mostly religious but with a very sick mom mom that I had to care for and I had to help with my brother and sister and a lot of chores that young kids typically don't have to do. When I was in my young 20's, I fell into a really bad lifestyle, partying, borderline alcoholism, depression, etc. I really don't think back then I would have cared what could have happened to me if I had continued in that lifestyle.
The best moment in my life was February 24th (I know, that's how important it is to me that I was saved . . . I remember that day) -- I was just up late on my computer, nothing special about that night at all, and just all of a sudden, I felt God. Literally, felt like there was God or an Angel with a hand on my shoulder and I was just filled with so much warmth and light. I have never cried so hard -- nor have I ever felt that way again and I just heard God say to me that I was done being in pain. That I was going to go to church and that all the hurt and pain that I felt was going to be gone. It was such a weird and wonderful moment.
The very next day, I threw out all of my alcohol, and my mom and I went to lunch and I told her I was going to start going to church, and that I was going to get a bible and she was just shocked. It was like night and day . . . it almost felt like being woken up from a sleep where I didn't recognize my life anymore. True to my word, I bought a bible that day (A bible that I've read front to back quite a few times) and it's quite beaten up. I was baptized a few months later and again, I had another surreal moment. I have a very intense fear of drowning (And although people tease me about it, yes, I take baths, lol) to the point that I told the pastor that I might panic when he put me under. And keep in mind, this wasn't deep water out in a river, it was like a bath tub that they used for baptizing. He assured me that if I was in distress, he wouldn't keep me under long, told me that I didn't need to be under the whole time, just needed to get dunked, lol. Well, he put me under and it was the most beautiful and peaceful moment that I have ever had being under water. My eyes were open and I had no fear and he kept me under the whole time since I was fine.
Anyway, (And i'm sorry if this is long but I really feel very passionate about sharing because I thought I was beyond hope and I think faith is an amazing and hard, but very rewarding and loving path to follow. Plus, I'm just articulate . . . I type 100 WPM anyway . . ) . . .
I'm married and absolutely luv my husband. We struggle a lot because his family doesn't accept our marriage because they don't like me. Two and a half years (Almost) of just . . . knowing I married my soul mate. I've struggled the last two years with infertility and I've been praying to God for some advice on that, and we believe we are being called to adopt.
That's my novel for all those who care to read. I am so glad there is such a thing as a Christian Vapor though! because I was definitely wondering (Although, it'd be stupid to say I thought I was the only one).
My biggest pet peeve is that people think i'm not religious when they first meet me. I have an amazing grace tattoo very prominently on my forearm but I guess being young and tattooed just cause people to think i'm a hoodlum . . .
A personal relationship with Jesus still has to be maintained....on our part. Jesus doesn't change. We do. 
