We discussed some issues about how to do my exercises so my back isn't made worse. She massaged me, and it seems there's a lot of muscles that need that massaging to loosen up and feel better. Sometimes I sort of rub them at home, but I'm afraid to get as aggressive as she does for fear of not doing it right and doing more harm than good. I think the pain I still feel is weather-related, though I can't quite figure out how, since sometimes I hurt when it's sunny, then feel better when it snows. The coming and going of pain doesn't seem to be related to anything else. She did mention that the steel plate in my arm might be exacerbating the situation, and maybe that's why Dr. Young wants to remove it. Who knows? Till we know more, it's hard to figure out what's really going on. I do know that the main source of pain is where the break was and the plate is. Sometimes it's pretty painful, and sometimes, for moments at a time, I'm pain-free. When that happens, I get this wonderful feeling like endorphins are coursing
through me. It's a wonderful feeling. I remember this from before, when I was recovering from sciatica. When I didn't hurt, it was like a natural high. I think it's beginning to get me down to hurt nearly all the time, though. The pain usually isn't so bad I can't go on with life, but it's always there in the background. I forgot to ask her whether I could use a heating pad to help it go away. Maybe that'd work, but I don't want to try it till I check first. So that's a rundown of what's going on with me lately.