Dang, I caved....

[jambi]

There are a few stores in my area near the "rougher" side of town that actually have packs open where you can buy singles. It's a good idea for people who need a smoke and don't have the means or need to buy a whole pack.

To the OP don't beat yourself up just like the others have said imagine how many you would have smoked by now had you not been vaping. And carry that vape gear everywhere.

Here in MX singles are available anywhere that sells cigs (everywhere), and they're dirt cheap compared to the US. You don't even need to buy fire...every store that sells cigs has a lighter tethered to a string sitting right there on the counter. Ups the challenge just a little bit, knowing that in 30 seconds and 3 pesos I could be across the street puffing on a Camel.

But I haven't caved yet. Just always have the vape gear within reach.

To the OP: No big deal, just remember to bring your gear next time.

 

[TamiP]

1st - Don't be so hard on yourself. Those occassional slam cravings happen to most people, and giving in under extremely stressful situations can happen. It's one of the reasons I never plan to quit vaping, because I feel better knowing that I will always have that and it lessens the impact of those sudden cravings that come on strong when things are stressful. However, slipping and having one cigarette does not destroy all of your work. Just move on, like others have said, and be happy you have your e-cig to go back to and be off of the analogs. People who simply quit smoking, and get hit with those slams where 1 cigarette happens, end up going back to cigarettes! It can happen after months and even years (I know, it happened to me after 2 years off of cigarettes back about 10 years ago before there were e-cigs to be there for me).

2nd-I have the exact same thing with cars and others driving. The only person I can be in a car with as a passenger without getting nauseous is my husband (and that took several years). It is anxiety--caused by a control issue. That's why it doesn't happen when you drive. You are in control and feel safe. There are still times when I have a sweep of nausea with my hubby driving when he makes a wild turn or swerve... it goes away fast enough, but it's a sickening feeling. So I feel your pain on that issue. I'm 52--it never goes away.

 

[Lynn Miller]

You did good, went right back to vaping and learned a few things in the mean time. No big deal, you're doing great and if you need encouragement you can always come here and hang out with us. We always help each other out here, it's the best thing about this forum.

 

[Rat2chat2]

I know you probably feel bad about it but "it is what it is". I try to keep around a higher nic juice that I call my "reserve nerve" juice. I think it helps me in times where I am the most stressed. Keep in mind that you are also a part of a huge support group family. Always someone here for you.

 

[Circa Survivor]

i suffer from anxiety issues myself. its weird to say the least. i can go for a walk through the woods at night unarmed in bear and moose country, and exhibit zero fear of a legitimite threat. i have worked construction on platforms up to 42 stories in the air, not a prob. go to a crowded shopping mall, the walls are crashing in and i want out 5 mins ago lol. makes zero logical sense.

the fear of anxiety itself is the worst part of anxiety.its a negative cycle that if left unchecked by reality, can really warp your perception of things, mine was in crowds of people or being packed into a small area. like a social phobia mixed with clostrophobia i suppose.isolation makes it worse.try not to do that for too long a period.

I know what you mean all too well. It's the same for me and sometimes it's just for no reason. My mom has/had the same issues. As far as the isolation thing goes, I think that's what kind of triggered it in a way. I used to work a graveyard security job for about 3 years and I literally had no contact with anyone besides the 1 other guard that was there with me (this was before I was in a relationship.) I only had a couple friends but I slept during the day so I never had a chance to hang out or anything. So I was literally all alone for that time. After that I worked at a place for 3 years where I met my girlfriend and made a bunch of good friends, and it all kind of happened around that time. Throw in a couple of unhappy events during that time in there as well lol.

 

[42Bisco]

Yeah, I agree with what everyone here is saying. Don't dwell on it, know that you tasted the nasties once again but that you don't have to go back and you have a delicious vape to go towards. Smoking is dead, vaping is the future.

 

[TyPie]

Not to worry!!!
All I ever did when I craved a cigarette is to vape HEAVY. I have been in the company of people smoking cigarettes like there is no tomorrow without caving, just by vaping heavy and often if I so much as had a tinge of a crave,
This doesn't help if you leave your gear at home. Just make sure you take your gear with you! To keep things is perspective, ONE cigarette over a 7 month period is absolutely and without a doubt a fantastic achievement! Just hang in, and don't go back.......and you'll be fine!

 

[englishmick]

I tried to quit a lot before vaping came along. I did that thing where you buy a pack and take one out and throw the rest of the pack in the trash bin. You know it will just be one but it never is just one. You'll buy another pack in an hour and be back in the saddle by the end of the day. I'm sure a lot of people here have been there.

The difference once you have started vaping is that one cigarette doesn't have to mean you will be back smoking that pack a day. You have something else to go back to. So vaping is working even if you have a relapse.

 

[Redruth]

I've been vaping for 7 months, and the whole time only having 1 cig in the middle, I caved on Saturday and bought a pack of cigs just so I could have one. The reason being is that I have REALLY bad anxiety problems and panic attacks. I went bowling with my brothers to a place 30 minutes out from where I live. I told them to just pick me up on the way, which was a huge mistake. I can not ride in someone else's car without getting anxious and sick, especially when driving a long distance away from home. It's not motion sickness, because I have no problem driving myself or with my girlfriend. Unfortunately I didn't bring any vape gear (dumb on my part) and the whole ride there and back I was thinking "I have to have him pull over" or "I'm not gonna make it home, just let me out right now!" I told him to drop me off at a gas station near my house, and I bought a water and a pack of cigs. I had one, and it helped to calm me down, but I felt bad at first. Then I think about all the times I didn't have a cigarette, and the guilt went away. I'm sure others can relate to things like this or the problems I have. It's really good to have a place where people understand what we go through as vapers and where we have come from.

I can certainly relate I'm hopeless in a car unless I am driving it myself. Just know it done now, no undoing it.
But you will have learned from it. Make sure you have your vape gear (and back up) with you, plan ahead.
And remember we are here we have your back. Don't beat yourself up you're back on the vape now,
that is a success story!

Big hugs and happy vaping.

 

[derMeister]

Eh, it's just a little slip-up. Just continue vaping as usual.
7 months is longer than either of my parents have ever quit smoking. Impressive.

 

[JustMeB]

Thanks for the support! Your situation sounds rough I had always been the outcast of the family of 4 brothers, especially being the youngest. It seems like when I was comfortable with vaping after a while I was always "afraid" to have a cigarette every now and then. I was always criticized for the way I smelled or always having to step outside for a smoke. But it seems like no one even noticed that I quit. A few weeks ago my dad was signing up for some kind of discount medical card type thing, and recommended me to the guy, and was like "you'll have to take the other option since you smoke." "Dad, I don't smoke." "When did that happen?" "I told you about this months ago. Don't you ever notice the devices I'm using, or how my clothes don't smell like cigarettes anymore?" I've tried to educate them on what I'm doing, but I guess they have more important things to pay attention to, like coupons and such xD

As a mother of two (one adult and one pre-teen) I am so sorry you're not getting the support at home that you really need and should have. But, if it helps some, I'm proud of you for quitting smoking

 

[SuZee]

Quit smoking a couple of years ago.. a month later started vaping.

Went through a divorce last fall, finalized in January... my ex contacted me in May and for whatever reason I went and bought a pack of cigs.

We corresponded for 6 months and I smoked the entire time.

I figure I spent around $1200 on smoking.

Much.. Much cheaper to vape. The cost alone will almost force you to quit