Bingo! You hit the nail squarely on the head on all points.
I would be very irritable too if I had that kind of fear constantly hanging over my head.
Isn't that the truth. I was going to say I couldn't even imagine the struggle, but actually I can. I bet most of us who tried CT and the BP NRT products can relate. I actually remember struggling every day to not buy a pack of smokes. And for me it would get worse with time instead of easier. I never could figure that part out. But eventually I would just cave and buy a pack.
I'm not saying those methods don't work. I know several people they worked for just fine. Just not me for some reason. (Thanks to this forum I am beginning to understand that "reason" a little better)
I am very happily not smoking these days. When I go in a convenience store I don't even notice those rows and rows of cigarettes. That used to be particularly hard for me.
I'm just glad those days are gone. At least for me. Life is too short for all that nonsense.