I am sorry to hear about your mother's worsening condition. I hope for continued success on your vape journey!
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I am sorry to hear about your mother's worsening condition. I hope for continued success on your vape journey!
Guys I re-read my comment yesterday and today it sounds so bitter, who is that person? I’m sorry that I spread that negativity, and all of you are so gracious to allow me to do so.
There really have been a lot of beautiful moments, and I want to tell you about all of them. I want to tell you about how all of her 5 brothers and sisters dropped everything and drove through the night to get here. I want to tell you about the baby owl that has been sitting at her front door since the first seizure started. I want to tell you how my husband and oldest son are at home digging and planting a memorial garden for the place she will be buried on our property. I want to tell you that my best friend booked a plane ticket from California right away, and I haven’t physically seen her in 6 years! I want to tell you about the visitors and food and flowers and plants. I want to tell you about a friend who paid for hotel rooms for everyone in my family so moms house would be quiet. I want to tell you that she did that even though she has 4 kids at home to take care of. I want to tell you about the friend that sat outside for 3 hours when the seizures were happening because I told her she couldn’t come yet, just stay home, I would call her. She couldn’t stay away. She walked up and down the sidewalk until I went out to get her.
And I’ve been trying to figure out why I want to tell you guys this stuff. And I’m realizing that we all have a place, and even though I don’t know any of you, the fact that you’ve taken time to respond and answer questions and help me at such a vulnerable time makes you important to me.
And I am bitter. But I’m keeping track of all the beautiful things to be thankful for later. And every time I use my little vape I think of you guys, all with your own losses and lives, racking up good karma points, being good humans to strangers in these forums.
Picture of the baby owl included.
There really have been a lot of beautiful moments, and I want to tell you about all of them. I want to tell you about how all of her 5 brothers and sisters dropped everything and drove through the night to get here. I want to tell you about the baby owl that has been sitting at her front door since the first seizure started. I want to tell you how my husband and oldest son are at home digging and planting a memorial garden for the place she will be buried on our property. I want to tell you that my best friend booked a plane ticket from California right away, and I haven’t physically seen her in 6 years! I want to tell you about the visitors and food and flowers and plants. I want to tell you about a friend who paid for hotel rooms for everyone in my family so moms house would be quiet. I want to tell you that she did that even though she has 4 kids at home to take care of. I want to tell you about the friend that sat outside for 3 hours when the seizures were happening because I told her she couldn’t come yet, just stay home, I would call her. She couldn’t stay away. She walked up and down the sidewalk until I went out to get her.
And I’ve been trying to figure out why I want to tell you guys this stuff. And I’m realizing that we all have a place, and even though I don’t know any of you, the fact that you’ve taken time to respond and answer questions and help me at such a vulnerable time makes you important to me.
And I am bitter. But I’m keeping track of all the beautiful things to be thankful for later. And every time I use my little vape I think of you guys, all with your own losses and lives, racking up good karma points, being good humans to strangers in these forums.
Picture of the baby owl included.
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Simply beautiful.
Rays of light can still poke through dark clouds.
I'll be honest, that first post of yours had me doubtful we could help you. It was all you.
I am glad you did it!
Sounds like some wonderful things are happening during this dark time. Please know you and your family are in lots of prayers.
Congratulations on quitting !
Congratulations on quitting !
It's a horrible disease and all to common unfortunately 
So very important that you give up tobacco.
I'm very sorry to hear about your Mother. God bless
So very important that you give up tobacco. I'm very sorry to hear about your Mother. God bless
I lost both my parents rather young, while still on college. I remember how difficult a time it was. But I also remember something my father had said perhaps 10 years earlier, I was still a kid and he was 60. His father had passed away several years earlier, although I did have a chance to meet him when I was very young. Then his mother passed away in her late 80's. He said to me "I guess I'm now an orphan". It seemed so strange to hear him say that at his age. Yet as I discovered for myself your age has no bearing on the effect losing a parent carries. It is a horribly wrenching time.
I am so glad you can look and see the good around you as your family and friends demonstrate how much they love both you and her. Now is a time of pain and sorrow. But there will still be good memories from this trying time. You just need to let your emotions work themselves through, and you're entitled to your anger and bitterness now. But know it will be different with time, and with all the loving support you have in your life.
I am so glad you can look and see the good around you as your family and friends demonstrate how much they love both you and her. Now is a time of pain and sorrow. But there will still be good memories from this trying time. You just need to let your emotions work themselves through, and you're entitled to your anger and bitterness now. But know it will be different with time, and with all the loving support you have in your life.
All I can do is echo what everyone else has said and wish you and your family and friends well. By the way, I saw no bitterness in your original message and you're doing incredibly well.
Jtbje,
I never read your comments yesterday as negative or bitter in any way shape or form and I would honestly find it hard to believe anyone else would either. You said you feel bitter…well then allow the bitterness have it's expression too.
You ask "who is that person"…that person is you allowing your feelings the vital space they need to breathe and to simply be.
That is a positive. Sharing and being honest in your feelings takes great courage and is true strength.
You have totally awesome friends and family…and one very seriously cute owl…who all care and love.
It is very beautiful, and heartwarming, how your family and friends are showing their love, compassion, kindness and empathy.
You said you are trying to figure out why you share "this stuff"…because it holds meaning and universal truth to all…and it helps as you go through this.
Thank you!!!
PS: I love that owl.
I never read your comments yesterday as negative or bitter in any way shape or form and I would honestly find it hard to believe anyone else would either. You said you feel bitter…well then allow the bitterness have it's expression too.
You ask "who is that person"…that person is you allowing your feelings the vital space they need to breathe and to simply be.
That is a positive. Sharing and being honest in your feelings takes great courage and is true strength.
You have totally awesome friends and family…and one very seriously cute owl…who all care and love.
It is very beautiful, and heartwarming, how your family and friends are showing their love, compassion, kindness and empathy.
You said you are trying to figure out why you share "this stuff"…because it holds meaning and universal truth to all…and it helps as you go through this.
Thank you!!!
PS: I love that owl.
We get only one mom. There is no one who cheers for us more than our moms. She'll be in your life forever.
One of my motivating factors was losing 6 friends/family members in 2 years. Sorry for your loss.
sorry to hear you and your family is going through this been there too many times myself
you have to stay strong and close to your family in tough times to help others and yourself get through it
the best wishes for you and yours from Scotland x
So sorry to hear about your Mom, JT. Losing a parent is so painful. Hang in there, dear. My thoughts are with you both at this difficult time.
And congratulations on quitting smoking. If you can through this time without a cig, you have won the battle! Stay strong!
And congratulations on quitting smoking. If you can through this time without a cig, you have won the battle! Stay strong!
Made me cry, friend. For you, for me, for all of us--those who have lost people they love, those who are losing them now, those who haven't yet but know they will sooner or later, and those who are alone with no one to cherish who cherishes them. Life is brutal and beautiful, and you are going through one of the hardest bits with courage and grace. I am glad to have met you.
The friends and family gathered around your mother is testament of your mother's love for others. Having lost my wife to cancer I know a little of what you are going through. Allow time for grieving as well as time for reflecting.
Sometimes you just have to say these things to clear them - in no way did I think this was bitter self pitying etc etc - grief is a process not an event and it has stages (hard ones) which you have to go through.
I can be hard bitten and cynical ... but the only time in my adult life that I shed a tear was when my Dad's coffin went through the screen in the Crematorium.
He died in 1982, I have come to terms with that...but there is rarely a day that goes by that I do not think of him and in any crucial moment in my life since I have heard his voice in my head...
You and your mother are in my thoughts while your grief is still raw ... things will get better, you may not believe that at this stage but time indeed does heal in its own way.
I can be hard bitten and cynical ... but the only time in my adult life that I shed a tear was when my Dad's coffin went through the screen in the Crematorium.
He died in 1982, I have come to terms with that...but there is rarely a day that goes by that I do not think of him and in any crucial moment in my life since I have heard his voice in my head...
You and your mother are in my thoughts while your grief is still raw ... things will get better, you may not believe that at this stage but time indeed does heal in its own way.
You are an absolute star keeping yourself smoke-free during this sort of stress
Chain vape your .... off and.....
Chain vape your .... off and.....
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