Nothin' like gettin' 3 hrs sleep...
New rule....never decide you want to BBQ somethin' on New Years day that has you back up at 4 AM
ahem. some of us havent' slept yet.
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ahem. some of us havent' slept yet.
yeah, i broke off from my family for a long time. i re-established ties with my mom a long time ago. my 3rd wife (my X) has immense trouble with mental illness. she helped me see a ton of stuff that i was blind to. i'm old now (at least for a Cowley
), so at some point you realize that everything that happened to you is what made you what you are. in order to accept yourself, you have to accept your past.where i'm at, is actually pretty cool. i spent 28 years in New England, and by the time i get my SSDI, i'll have been in the NW for another 28. it's time to figure out what i'm gonna do for the next 28 years. my mom is actually my inspiration now, so no matter what i do, it has to be something that others benefit by.
i owe a lot (just about everything) to my mom. my X was pretty helpful too:
Got to check the pit and hopefully my eyelids as well for an hour or so....
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Got to check the pit and hopefully my eyelids as well for an hour or so....
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do you remember where you left...your eye lids???
I'm happy it worked out that way for you. But when you have immediate family telling people you are a drug addict, a sinner, the black sheep, and extended family accepting it... Well I still love all but one of my brothers. I've long ago accepted they and all the aunts and uncles aren't my family. Except one aunt at least questioned me about it. (and another aunt and cousin are family)yeah, i broke off from my family for a long time. i re-established ties with my mom a long time ago. my 3rd wife (my X) has immense trouble with mental illness. she helped me see a ton of stuff that i was blind to. i'm old now (at least for a Cowley
where i'm at, is actually pretty cool. i spent 28 years in New England, and by the time i get my SSDI, i'll have been in the NW for another 28. it's time to figure out what i'm gonna do for the next 28 years. my mom is actually my inspiration now, so no matter what i do, it has to be something that others benefit by.
i owe a lot (just about everything) to my mom. my X was pretty helpful too:
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i know the feeling! i learned to take pride in being the black sheep!
i was fortunate that my work situations gave me leeway to become real comfortable. actually, i couldn't do a job if they didn't. i had no idea at the time ... my mom's problem was! i was madder at my sisters cuz the egged her on. that actually helped when i worked at the union. i could walk into a room with scores of ticked off people, and it never felt as bad as being at home. folks would be impressed by the time we were done.i'm Irish, so being an alcoholic is pretty much generic. i lived on drugs and booze, i ate at work. if you're lucky, you end up creating your own family, anyway. i got easier when i moved 3000 miles away! it was much easier to not give a crap. working in kitchens creates tight knit families, so that helped too. i was good at what i did, so my bosses actually enjoyed watching me break my fair share of the rules. i was a source of constant amazement!
i think i had it easy, though. you shouldn't put unreal expectations on yourself. if they don't want you, f--k 'em! they're not good enough for you. you have to save yourself and not worry about them. i remember when i was in reform school and they asked me what they should do with me. i told them i was fine there, so they didn't have to do anything! turns out, that's how you get out!
i might have been hated at home, but i was recognized outside of it. i could tell you stories!
i hope you learn to become comfortable with your family situation. don't expect to have it easy like me. well, it wasn't easy, but i'm a fighter. i took umbrage with how i was treated. it's easy now, it wasn't back then.
as long as you are happy with yourself. that is what counts!
Ralphie most likely would too, but doubt if many others would, without the hint you gave.
Thank you, & top o the mornin' to ya.Morning All!
Looking quite dapper there in your avi Butch
Good morning all and Happy New Year. One request though, could you type a little more quieter ... at least until the aspirin kicks in? I should have vaped that champagne instead of drinking it.
i understand but I don't think it would work for me. Except my Aunt and cousin who were shut out too. I'm close with them.i know the feeling! i learned to take pride in being the black sheep!
i'm Irish, so being an alcoholic is pretty much generic. i lived on drugs and booze, i ate at work. if you're lucky, you end up creating your own family, anyway. i got easier when i moved 3000 miles away! it was much easier to not give a crap. working in kitchens creates tight knit families, so that helped too. i was good at what i did, so my bosses actually enjoyed watching me break my fair share of the rules. i was a source of constant amazement!
i think i had it easy, though. you shouldn't put unreal expectations on yourself. if they don't want you, f--k 'em! they're not good enough for you. you have to save yourself and not worry about them. i remember when i was in reform school and they asked me what they should do with me. i told them i was fine there, so they didn't have to do anything! turns out, that's how you get out!
i might have been hated at home, but i was recognized outside of it. i could tell you stories!
i hope you learn to become comfortable with your family situation. don't expect to have it easy like me. well, it wasn't easy, but i'm a fighter. i took umbrage with how i was treated. it's easy now, it wasn't back then.
as long as you are happy with yourself. that is what counts!
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