I hear you. A *huge* part of the reason I cycle off my pain meds on a regular basis is because I'm trying to avoid *ever* having to take Oxycontin, and that's exactly what I'd be looking at in another ten years or so if I just kept upping what I have now as my tolerance increases.. so it's down to me to do whatever I can to make sure my tolerance *never* increases, and the only way to hit that reset button is to just not take them for a while. I try to make sure I'm only off one at a time, but sometimes I miscalculate... those are the *really* bad months. And for all that, as you and I have previously discussed, chronic pain sufferers still get treated as drug seeking... it's ridiculous.
I'm hanging in there, by my fingernails, it's starting to feel like... nothing major, just this weather doing me in physically. Too much cold and rain... one at a time, I can handle, both at the same time feels like someone's taking a hammer to all my joints at once. One of these days I'm gonna find that little

and hit him over the head with his

hammer.