Men don't like to admit they sometimes cry,but that's all I've done for the last two days. Thanks to all who suggested I take my cat Goobies to the vet, but it was a heart condition that was untreatable. He was a large .... Cat and almost 15 years old ... my heart feels like it's made of lead... I have no idea of how a parent could lose a child and survive it because I lost only my pet and it feels like my world has come to an end ... My son,daughter and my X marched into my apartment last night carrying a handful of rabies shot papers, spayed document, 3 kinds of cat food, a much smaller litter box than my Goobies needed to use, and a carry box full of the most energetic kitty I've ever seen ... an 8 month old ball of zip, flip, whirl and twirl which I assured them I was not ready to deal with as they assured me back that I was ... I stare at her and she makes me weep, but she is a loving kitty with a touchy needy attitude that Maine .... cats don't really express or ever seem to need ... so I've been made both sad and happy by her arrival ... and as usual it's always nice to feel as well as to give ... love to a pet ... I would love now to just forget the end but remember the near 15 years of memories ... with my Goobies.
