rWhen I lost my boy Weston (that's him in my avatar image) of cancer, after 5 months of chemotherapy that I knew would only give me more time with him and not cure him, I was absolutely devastated. He had literally been my shadow for a good 23 hours a day, every day of his 5 years with me, If I went to the bathroom, he'd be right there laying on the floor next to the shower, if I went to the backyard, there he would be right by my side, in the kitchen, yup there was my shadow, no matter where I went he would shadow me at all hours, day or night. I couldn't even get up to get a glass of water at night without him watching out for me by following me. When he was younger I used to put him in my shopping basket on a nice blanket and nobody in any store that I went into said anything about it. I'd go down to FedEx 3 times a week and if I didn't bring him with me the employees behind the counter would give me what-for. He was adored by all and most loved by me.
Well, we finally had to make the decision that the chemo wasn't working well enough anymore and took him in. It's the first time in my life that I actually fell to my knees from overwhelming emotions as we were trying to leave the vets office. I was heart broken for ages. I couldn't even mention his name without balling. My consuming thoughts for months were about him, and every time that I'd really start to think about him I would just want to curl up and cry like an infant.
Finally my partner convinced me to go to the dog park with our little girl Penelope and I felt out of place without my boy with me. A lady over heard me talking about it and came over and just reassured me with one phrase....
"One day your tears will turn to smiles as you think about him".
I doubted her very much, but then a bit over a year later I was thinking about Weston and instead of the usual choked up feeling and tears that would moisten my eyes, I noticed that I was smiling when thinking about him....
So, I'm going to pass it on to you,
"One day your tears will turn to smiles as you think about your Goobies".