Hi everyone! I guess I will share my story as well.. I think my story with smoking is most stupid..of course it might go without saying..it is smoking
Anyway... I wasn't going to smoke. I was into sports and such, and smoking and sports don't mix. Then I started hanging out with people who smoked, and decided what the heck. I got a head rush, which I liked, and only smoked off and on for a while. Then I bought my first pack and started smoking all the time. I was 16. I used lunch money my mom gave me. (Back then a pack was only 1.25.) I smoked a pack a day pretty quickly. And smoked for 10 years. Then in 99 I managed to put 18months together. But the stress of, sorry for sad news, my brothers death in 2000, caused me to pick up again. I smoked for another 4 years. I quit again in 2004, and didn't smoke for 7 years. I was sure I had it licked. And then another death of someone extremely close to me, caused me to pick up again in 2010. I have been smoking a pack a day now since.
I think for me, I am going to have to come up with a better coping skill. Loss is a part of life. I think maybe vaping will be good for me. Especially because you can eventually vap with no nicotine. But who knows..the jury is still out. I do like it though, which is a win. And with new found friends...I have some hope.