Short history.
I've always been described as "Painfully Shy". But that didn't even begin to cover it. In grade school, I remember being terrified going to lunch, there were so many kids. Sometime around fourth grade, I quit going to the lunch room, and just walked around the building, as I did at recess as well. In junior high I grabbed a candy bar from the machine, and walked around the building. Also, around that time I learned how to shut off all visible signs of fear, trembling, blushing, etc. During high school I shut off my emotions and learned to "act normal". All through my school years I was lucky to have one friend in any given year. Thinking about it now, the only reason I even made it through my school years was probably because my Dad smoked a pipe. I LOVED the smell of my Dads pipe.
I started to smoke after high school. On and off for ten years (nicotine didn't have that much of a hold on me). I've been smoking 1.5-2 PAD now for thirty+ years.
In September last year I discovered I have Social Anxiety Disorder. I did some online research and found a test that measures your anxiety level. There were comments by some of the people who took the test, and I read "BooHoo I got an 80", "Waaa I got a 90". My score was 135. It took me until February of this year to get up the nerve to see a therapist (drugs were out of the question). After two months of therapy, my therapist told me I also have Post Tramatic Stress Disorder.......WHAT???? That happens to combat troups and people who have had some horrendous experience. My life has had none of that. My therapist couldn't treat me for that because there didn't seem to be a cause. She asked me if I read books or watched TV or movies. I don't. I don't listen to music either. She said "Wow, you really HAVE shut down. Those things stir up the emotions." After three months I quit going, I just couldn't bear sitting in the waiting room for five minutes with other people, some talking on their cell phones, and screaming kids.
In May of this year I started
vaping. I tried so hard. Ecigs are fun and convenient, and I succeded in not smoking an analog ONE day. I thought "I have the nicotine and the nervous habit, I can do this". There was "something missing". Then I found ECF and read the thread "Are we getting it?", and learned about WTA. I religiously watched the thread on WTA and then it seemed to just die. Then Aroma
ejuice announced they would have it. I missed the first roll out. DAMN!
I got some of the unflavored on the second sale...really strong nutty flavor (almonds? to me) and it kinda made me nauseous (not the "too much nic" nauseous). Now I've got the Menthol. So how is it?
Holy Grail, Unicorns? For me...YES!
WTA does not CURE the anxiety, but it has finally loosened the knots I've had inside for as long as I can remember. I feel that it works better than analogs...maybe because the alkaloids aren't "muddied" up by the smoke?
THANK YOU Aroma EJuice, Jerry, DVap, Kinabaloo, tceight, and everyone who worked on this. You are gods to me.....
Sorry for the long post...and spilling my guts.
