AHA moment?...
I have posted before that I've been with Blu on and off until one friday a friend of mine showed me his ego. Tried it, liked it, ordered the same night. While waiting for my shipping, I've cut the analogs to half with the Blu. I guess my AHA moment is when my ego came. So the day it came i still smoked analogs, my hubby, who is a non-smoker, have put up with my smell, my breath, my sleeping pattern (snoring ). He did not show disgust when he hugged me , but he did not kiss my head after the morning smoke, and he kiss me but it's always a quick one. ( i know TMI, but i have to tell it this way. Trust me ). The next day, i skipped coffee coz that would make me want to smoke and started with my ego..
By noon, hubby hugged me and sniffed, kissed my head... i guess that was my AHA moment. When i realized that, I did not just affect my health but i also affect the marriage. I have limit my husband to the things that he wants to do but cant do coz he dont want to offend me.
He always told me that someday, i will quit and it will be for me. He said that if i quit coz he wants me to quit, he will end up nagging me and that would be very disrespectful. He wants me to do it on my own time. I have been with this guy for 10 years and smoked for 15.
When he goes to a friend's house that smoke, i would tell hiim to take a shower coz the smell clings to him, ( yeah i know i was a ..... ).
I am glad i quit. I do not think i would ever go back. I have an awesome support group and that includes this forum.
We quit for reasons that we hold important to us, more important than the cravings we fight. Some are lucky to quit just because. But for those who cant, like me, I am very glad i found this forum.
I guess i went off the AHA moment topic. Sorry
