Too much pain now, I hope I do not live to be 100....
I have to die before my husband -- he *could* live without me, though he'd probably be like an animal in a cage. No way in hell I could live without him. And I'm delighted that nicotine may have negative cardiovascular effects -- I'd sooooo much rather go quick with a heart attack or stroke, than dying by inches from cancer!
When my mom hears me say things like that, she says I'm morbid -- I say I'm realistic, 'cause ain't nobody gotten out of here alive yet.
Andria