Day 21
In the purely Biblical sense, I am halfway to my goal. In reality, the finish line seems an unfathomable distance away. This curse that normal people live daily haunts me with it's sensible speech patterns and complete control over my bladder. I feel like a lemming...a lemming that doesn't run off the cliff but instead stays sober and journals his horrific experiences with his adorably cute little hands, on what I assume would be an equally adorable little computer I guess, I dunno what lemmings use to blog.
I actually received an award at work for all my hard work over these past few weeks, these people taunt me with their acrylic trophies celebrating normalcy and mediocrity. Then to add insult to injury, they serve some overly dry store bought cake. It crumbles unsatisfactorily in my mouth, like sawdust...sawdust mixed with fear and mint frosting, with a touch of complacency.
My home life suffers as well, I find myself filling the quiet times with torturous events like dusting, mopping, vacuuming. The bed of empty bottles and beer cans that once littered my floor have revealed a terrible hard wood floor veneer that constantly mocks my decent into typical behavior. I dont even recognize my own home....ok that part isn't so different since when i'm drunk i usually break into various neighbors homes to pass out...so let's call that a wash.
When I wake up under the brutal interrogation of the sunlight, I am filled with a sickening upbeat attitude. I say "Good morning, nice weather were having" to co-workers and friends like I'm some sort of puppet. Their initial surprise at what they probably thought was a mentally challenged person that was camping out in an office suddenly becoming a coherent and productive worker has passed, now they cheerfully wave back, invite me to lunch, offer small talk at my office door. It's like the gates of Rome being sieged by Visigoths, if Rome was defended by tacky pastel fiberglass wall inserts and motivational cat posters. No I will NOT "Hang in there" you sick feline monster!!!
When the apocalypse comes, these "normies" will be swallowed hole by the great hordes of Abaddon, only those of us who trained diligently in the art of insanity will remain behind to get all the Hostess Twinkies left in the store aisles. I only hope the End Times come after Easter, when I can return to my regular life of debauchery and blissful ignorance.