I don't want you to think I'm picking on you. I'm just concerned because things can go wrong so quickly when dealing with animals, "tame" or in the wild. I'd hate your last thought to be "I thought we had a connection".
I don't like to talk about this b/c its still painful and I don't want to sound like I'm tooting my own horn here,but its something for you to think about so here it goes. Before I became a nurse I lived horses,grew up riding,sent myself to nursing school barrel racing.I was good enough to qualify for the NBRA,I also am a trainer and I still train my own horses.Never got hurt,not seriously until 1.5yrs ago. I'd ridden this horse several times with someone around and had not a bit of trouble,did my ground work created a strong bond all that stuff, this one particular day I decided to ride Cutter without anyone around,put him
through his paces he did GREAT. My "gut" told me not to get on him,to wait but I thought it was just my own jitters being 50 at the time so I mounted. We made half a lap around my round pen and he decided to buck. I lost my seat.At that point I had two choices go a round pen panel and hit my head on an oak tree or land on my ..... Fortunately I kept my head and was able to turn him enough to pick my spot. Ended up breaking my pelvis in six different places. No one was around,we can't get cellphone service way out here so I laid there for 4hrs trying to scoot on my .... to get to where maybe I could stand. The whole time I was out there I was praising God that I could feel pain,it could have been a lot worse.
That humbled me,it wasn't easy having someone bathe me, or clean me up when I crapped or urinated on myself, having my Mother who was 72 take care of my every need,bringing me coffee every morning.Something I should have been doing for her. Or seeing the tears in my family's eyes as I struggled to walk on a walker or do my therapy exercises.
I still have my horses and I train but I can't ride anymore my pelvic ligaments have shortened so I can't swing my leg over the saddle I've tried. One day I will though when something happens to Mother for I can't/won't put her
through that again.
I still have Cutter to,he was traumatized for awhile after he threw me, while I was gone he lost a good deal of weight and for a few months there I had to sit in the empty stall beside his to get him to eat. Longer than that before he would let me lead him,anyone else could but me,and if he was out in the round pen he'd run to the other side if I got in there with him and wouldn't let me near him.He'd come up tp me after I got out and closed the gate.
What has really hit home with me is,my life isn't about me anymore or what I want to do,its about the people who love me
and all that I had put them through,suddenly I realized how much I had put my Mother through all those yrs and I thought her fears were unwarranted but she loves so much she let me live my dream for as long I could good thing I went on to nursing school though or I'd be up .... creek now.
Enjoy life Rave,live it to the fullest just be as safe as you can while your doing it.That's what we're saying.