kinda ok, my emotions are really messing with me at the moment. i left home at 11am and he was mad...i mean MAD. and he has yet to reply to any texts or phone calls. oh well i guess.
Hey, Mrs! So sorry to hear things are mondo tense yet again. On the walking out thing.... not to say its always a good idea, cause its not... it can backfire. BUT. The thing I've figured out about men is most of them have ZERO (negative number, actually) feel for subtlety. What this means is if you're silently seething mad, or barely holding in the tears, or utterly miserable 99% of the time... there are a whole slew of men who will never notice, as long as theres food on the table, pretty wife next to em, and happy healthy kids. I know you've been working to vocalize how you feel with him, and that's awesome. But there is a whole bunch of guys who the severity of the situation is NEVER gonna sink in to until THEIR life is drastically altered or changed. As long as life goes on as usual, they can get away with the ostrich w head in sand routine, and go on as usual, and certainly never notice how you're faring emotionally. So I' sure he is ...... that you left. But lets hope that most of that is just cause his routine is upset, and once it sinks in that suddenly house is silent, wife is gone, and happy healthy kid is nowhere to be found.... maybe at that point he'll sit down and take a really close look at what he is and is not willing to lose, and what he's willing to do to ensure that he doesn't lose it (and thus upset his ordered universe). AND lets hope that all the things you've been saying to him.. now he's revisiting them and reevaluating how serious you are about a change needing to happen. So hoping after a bit, he reaches a new awareness of what you mean to him, and what he's willing to do to keep you, and from now on keep you happy. Anyway, hon.. I'm pulling for you! Whether your path is with him or without him in the end, I'm rooting for you and the little guy!
