it is interesting. As mentioned, I just spent the day at the Portland Japanese gardens. I will take a moment to brag. Ours here are considered by many to be the best ones outside of Japan. We take a lot of pride in them.
I am actually trying to put myself in a position to become a board member currently. They are about to do a 30 million addition to it that will be done by the person originally responsible for creating it in the first place. It is such a wonderful place and I really want to try to help keep it that way for years to come.
I have been dozens of times, but today took the time to take the guided tour once again. What struck me is what each area represented. I then spent about two hours reading about Japanese culture and philosophy after the tour. What I came away with was mostly a feeling that I spend too much time caught up in day to day petty thoughts. I, as I always do when I leave there decided I was going to make a conscious effort to live a better life and strive to be a better person. I can tell you this is not easy to do. I understand how easy it is to get caught up in the day to day stresses. To complain, judge and generally wallow in negative thoughts.
I think the one thing I left there today with is this.
I am certainly no expert on what I will be thinking when I am lying on my death bed waiting to die. I do know this however. I will not be thinking about the cool cars I had. I will not be thinking about how much money I have or even how many zenesis I own. I am pretty sure my thoughts will be focused on my relationships and if I have people that I cared about and cared about me. I will be thinking about the impact I made on the world, which I hope will have been a positive one. Those are the things that I will be thinking about. Not all this other crap. certainly not what number I have on anything.
lets get back to having fun in here again. Lets not get caught up in petty crap like serial numbers and who has what.
sorry I keep reading my post and realizing I want to change things.
