I'm curious... I am not depressive, but I have (as some have noted from my recent posts) occasional panic/anxiety attacks. I'm wondering... when you "get depressed": Does your conscious mind say, "Oh, crap... here we go again" as you feel the depression coming on? In other words, can you feel it developing, and are helpless to prevent it from happening, and running it's full course?
Meanwhile, non-sequitor - Hiya! I'm awake at 2:42AM because we ordered "Orange Food". That is, Indian take-out. Now once again my digestive system is all messed up and keeping me awake when everyone else is sleeping.
Oh... and they "didn't have any" samosas. Now, that's like a Chinese place not having pot stickers. WTF??? Not sure I'll be ordering from these guys again... an extra order of naan stuffed in a bag does NOT compensate for the yummy goodness of the missing samosas, sorry.
How is everyone doing East of me who are in Saturday's daylight?
-Insp. 2211
I usually don't "notice" my depression until I've been there for awhile, then I see the signs in retrospect; sleeping a lot, either eating all the time or not at all, apathy, and everything makes me angry and I snap at people for nothing. Also friends have told me over the years that I tend to isolate myself. I simply stay home. I don't go anywhere or see anyone. I used to cry and cry, but I take Celexa now, so the crying is really at a minimum.
So, after a month or two of all of the above, the light finally comes on and it is an "Ah" moment...I'm depressed, that's the problem. I can usually calm down a bit after realizing what's going on. I've had YEARS of practice with this.
