It's probably not what anyone wants to hear and I hate to say it, but when i feel like that, wanting a real smoke SO bad. I just have one. I keep a pack of smokes around just in case. Because i'm an addict and I have no luck, so I don't want to have to hunt down a pack in the middle of the night when all my equipment fails at once. lol.
But i've noticed they taste worse and worse every time. I bought a 25 pack two weeks ago, there's still 22 in there.
There's nothing wrong with being honest. But you're right, I am a grown woman and can smoke if I wanted. But man, it took me 22 years to put those things down and I really didn't want to go there again after 3 weeks of being "clean." I have back-ups for my back-ups now, so I think I'm good.
Thank you for your input,
Dani
I agree with and understand both sides at once, because I did have occasion to go back to smoking very briefly after my illness, and I knew from the outset that I was in no way returning to full-time permanent smoker status, it was a stop-gap measure -- but I told my husband that I'm 53 yrs old, old enough to identify my own needs, know my own limits, and decide my own behavior, and that having quit them once very easily with e-cigs, I was pretty sure I could do it again -- and I did, though it was a bit harder the 2nd time.
I think it has to be a judgement call, because I don't think anyone should make themselves so miserable that it becomes counter-productive to the end goal -- quitting smoking. It's not easy, and many people who do eventually quit have a few starts and stops before they actually manage to make it stick, same as any other addiction -- I didn't manage to get sober and stay that way the first time I tried that, either.
But it's great that you managed to weather it, because I'm sure you've realized by now that each time you face down a temptation and get past it without succumbing, the stronger you become to subsequent temptations, until pretty soon you can't figure out what you found so dang tempting about whatever-it-is.

Andria