Hi all,
About two years ago or so I purchased a pathetic e-cig setup from a random website when I first heard about it. I didn't know anything about it then and wasted a lot of money. I never ended up spending more money on a decent setup (after learning about it all) as I was worried it wouldn't help me off analogs, same as last time.
However I just reached a dilemma. I started taking Chantix two weeks ago and haven't smoked at all for three days now. I don't even have the physical urge to start again. The mental urge though is driving me mad. Reaching for the 'pack that should be there', constantly putting things in my mouth, my hands fidgeting and shaking like crazy. I don't WANT a cigarette.. but my hands do.
I quit because I'm really young, yet my doctor said I'm at risk of developing COPD very soon. So that was it. Quit. But... the dilemma is that I love smoking. I love the feeling, the warmth.. the everything except the health risk, coughing, dying aspect. I'm worried that because I love smoking, I'll start again.
Now I'm at a crossroads. Is it better to keep forcing myself through quitting completely without touching anything.. or am I giving up if I get 0mg no nicotine juice and a new e-cig to enjoy? I'm worried that it might push me back to analogs if I start physically smoking something again. I did get a disposable 0mg (haven't used it yet) and it has me thinking about smoking more than I was yesterday but I think it is because I feel so guilty right now. Like I was smoke-free but I failed and gave in.
What if I vape like crazy? I remember when I had one before and I would pick it up every five seconds. Is that possibly hurting me in any way? I'm trying to make sure that I'm not quitting.. and then just picking up something else that is going to harm me. While the no nicotine won't give me the addiction, I'll still have the mental addiction to work through at that point but will be out of my chantix which has been helping me deal with this.
If I start vaping after I quit smoking outright.. is that just a failure? Should I avoid this completely? I just want to hear other's opinions on it so I can try to work this out better in my head.
About two years ago or so I purchased a pathetic e-cig setup from a random website when I first heard about it. I didn't know anything about it then and wasted a lot of money. I never ended up spending more money on a decent setup (after learning about it all) as I was worried it wouldn't help me off analogs, same as last time.
However I just reached a dilemma. I started taking Chantix two weeks ago and haven't smoked at all for three days now. I don't even have the physical urge to start again. The mental urge though is driving me mad. Reaching for the 'pack that should be there', constantly putting things in my mouth, my hands fidgeting and shaking like crazy. I don't WANT a cigarette.. but my hands do.
I quit because I'm really young, yet my doctor said I'm at risk of developing COPD very soon. So that was it. Quit. But... the dilemma is that I love smoking. I love the feeling, the warmth.. the everything except the health risk, coughing, dying aspect. I'm worried that because I love smoking, I'll start again.
Now I'm at a crossroads. Is it better to keep forcing myself through quitting completely without touching anything.. or am I giving up if I get 0mg no nicotine juice and a new e-cig to enjoy? I'm worried that it might push me back to analogs if I start physically smoking something again. I did get a disposable 0mg (haven't used it yet) and it has me thinking about smoking more than I was yesterday but I think it is because I feel so guilty right now. Like I was smoke-free but I failed and gave in.
What if I vape like crazy? I remember when I had one before and I would pick it up every five seconds. Is that possibly hurting me in any way? I'm trying to make sure that I'm not quitting.. and then just picking up something else that is going to harm me. While the no nicotine won't give me the addiction, I'll still have the mental addiction to work through at that point but will be out of my chantix which has been helping me deal with this.
If I start vaping after I quit smoking outright.. is that just a failure? Should I avoid this completely? I just want to hear other's opinions on it so I can try to work this out better in my head.