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Oh, Christmas just sucks in my opinion. Of course, that is also based in being at the heart of my seasonal wintertime depressions like, right then. My favorite holiday was always Halloween in part because DRESS UP free CANDY WHUT (I am not from here, I was old enough to freaking APPRECIATE it) but also because I knew after that I would pretty much be like, suicidal until March.

Pretending you are NOT, decorating a tree, being pleasant to the relatives? F:censored: THAT! But I did it.

Now, it's not so bad, but it's still tainted by my mom's "perfectionistic" Christmases. She has to have everything "just right." Yeah, you try that with like, 4 siblings and their households and offspring crammed into one house, and everything is on a "schedule" of perfection There is even this OCD way of opening the gifts, and I am not a fan. Nope.

Also, NEVER buy a live tree .The kid was all sad one year and wanted a live tree because he did not want the tree to "die" (I think he was in his death phase,)

We got a SMALL one, and it weighed, oh, approximately a billion pounds,. Getting it into the house was NOT cool. I had to participate, even with a freaking doily.

I am super glad the husband did not ask me to assist in digging a tree sized hole with like, frozen, snowy ground to work with.

It died anyway. I am not sure if we did something wrong, or we caught the big dog digging at it, because she was Like That. "Something new? I will investigate oh no I did not MEAN to kill it, here's the dead thing,"

Yeah well hello been gone for a while but Merry Seasonal bliss to all. I used to cope with massive amounts of alcohol but now I have lithium and sobriety, LOL. Grudgingly, it is SLIGHLY better.

I have provided like, rational and reasonable excuses to avoid visiting my mom so far, but next year gonna be tough. LOL.
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@FringeChief68 , love you like a, you're a dude right? (Sorry, I am not right.) brother man but I think we all know that any singing show with Simon Cowell in it is like, MY preview, especially halleluiah.

I guess I'm kidding. I don't know any more. I just spent like 2 hours at the pharmacy NOT sorting out my Med Problem (new, mail order generic that is like messing me up BIG TIME.)

I had to leave abruptly to have my shaking rage episode in my car (changing my doc's script and going to Walmart instead yeah even *I* knew that was not smart, driving to Mexico except no they don't sell Adderall exactly although they DO sell an Adderall derivative for weight loss that was FDA banned for "problems" (usually, that means death.) It had some cool other ingredients I was a bit intrigued until finally I was like, "For the love of GOD Anna this is getting into Tramadol relapse territory, and let's face it I have NO business being in a Mexican Pharmacia EVER with my Tramadol history ESPECIALLY when enraged, I mean... I'd buy TWO pills then tomorrow 200."

So yes, I calmly and soothingly like coaxed myself home. I'm not doing anything. I KNOW what to do now so I just need to suck it and well, take Benadryl and a few extra benzos especially at work until my doc can/will Fix It. Argh.

This new generic doesn't really work but it's like AWESOME for Rage Mode. Sweet. I have so missed me in RAGE mode.

LOL post what you want. Like I can stop you,. I can only stop ME from doing inadvisable things.

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It's cute. As long as it's not a baby goat. Unless it is a baby goat in training, then it is a hellion beast.

Me and the husband have been engaging in what animals we can have. We both agree goats are like Right Out,

Pigs are..,,, eh, they're fine. Cows really stink, and not in a small way either, they just.... You need a separated cow pasture, Plus, so much Milking.

I'm okay with Chickens,. I am vaguely frightened but have collected enough eggs with the kid to know they are mostly harmless.

Donkey: Assuredly unless I convince the husband to let me teach him to ride, in which case maybe 2 horses. You can't have THAT many as my dad said darkly as we bought my first horse, "Never have a hobby that EATS." He was kind of right. They are not cheap. The don't produce anything but FUN and PLEASURE.

With no kiddo anymore I could fully dedicate myself to equine adventure! I love them so much!

Getting EXCITED. The husband has given me a FIRM promise by January first at the latest. That may actually be a better time to shove it on the market. Many many snowbirds are renting and do not want to. Housing prices are rising by 3 k a MONTH,

I'm pretty psyched honestly. My son told me I could do "ANYTHING" and he would support me. I think he was a little taken aback when I said, "I AM DOING it. I want to work this job for 15-20 more year, then retire , and have animals and light gardening and live with my husband, dear child, who I have never mentioned this to you before, but I think you are old enough to take it I love JUST as MUCH as you,." Heh. He's in an "I hate my stepdad mode' but they tend to pass. I was like, "I just want you to KNOW I am doing what I WANT, and it's AWESOME." LOL.

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I kind of LOVE this guy also it has 22 views so like, the guy definitely needs MOAR views.

LOL I love how he's being driven in some sort of car for the video.



I mean, I am glad I don't KNOW him but also.... it's good for a moment of "Christmas cheer." Yeah, KINDA.

Anna
 

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