hey gin, I'm a cancer survivor, and was a die hard smoker even when watching my mom slowly succumb to breathing issues from lung cancer, surgery to remove a lobe of a lung, and emphysema...she was on O2 for the last ten years of her life and wanted nothing more than for me to quit smoking...( she struggled for every breath at the end...)which I continued to do even after having a kidney with a malignant tumor the size of a tangerine removed...the tumor was pressing on my lung which is the only reason I felt it...no one can understand the mind

you go through when you get that kind of news, but life does go on, day by day, week by week, sometimes minute by minute...been there and got my souvenir. I done a lot of living in the past twenty years since...learned to fly and build rc airplanes, took up scuba diving and seen stuff all over the place, and learned to sky dive and made about 600 jumps...lots of other things too, got my fill of this world so to speak...I can relate to what your saying as to where you are going and being OK with it...I've been ready to take that trip for a long time. That doesn't mean I'm in a rush to go there, but when that time comes, I won't be shedding any tears. If life is a test, I think the big guy gives the strongest of us the hardest questions to try and answer...kinda crazy logic, but to me at least, it seems to fit. just rambling here, but hope you catch my drift.
Enaud, you have been a special person to me on here for quite some time. I appreciate all you have wrote. Thank you. One of the rallying cries of IPF patients is, "I wish I had cancer!" See, there is no hope, no cure. I'm 50 years old. The transplant doctors said I won't live 5 years unless I get a double lung transplant. They say because of my age and otherwise good health, I can hope for another 15 years of life if transplant is successful.
the expected survival rate after diagnosis is 3-5 years
With a double lung transplant:
the national one-month adult expected survival rate is 96.85 percent
the national one-year adult expected survival rate is 87.47 percent.
the national three-year adult expected survival rate is 68.23 percent.
the national five-year adult expected survival rate is 53.4 percent.
the national ten-year adult expected survival rate is 28.4 percent.
Again, I'm 50 years old. If I make it to 56 it will be because the doctors are wrong. I only point all this out is not because I'm panning for sympathy. I'm having a blast. It is what it is. I point it out because others don't really realize just how serious it is. I can't tell you how many people have approached me telling me, "I'm a cancer survivor." I always thank them for their concern but what I really want to say is, "Wish I could be a cancer survivor."
When I have gotten angry at God and yelled at Him, a voice inside my head answers, "You won't care when you get here." Gee, thanks...
He's right, I won't. But, there is plenty of time to go later. I mean, Heaven is forever and if given the choice, I'd rather stay here another 40 years. I mean, I bought enough ProVari's to last me that long! I'm ......! lol
The Bible is full of stories whereas prophets have changed His mind. Jesus tells parables that demonstrate keep asking The Father in His name and He'll get tired of hearing it and grant our request.
So, that's what Jackie and are doing, we are going to change His mind and He is going to heal me.
But besides that, I have lived a great life. There are plenty of those who don't live long at all, babies for example. Or the 4 year old little girl getting hit by a car on the way to school for example.
So yeah, I'm ok with it now but we are still going to change His mind and He will heal me. GUARANTEED!