I started at 11. Newports. Ugh. I can't even smoke a Newport now. I never did to to be "cool" or fit in, it was just something I was always around with my mother so it was kind of second nature.
Models for what? For developing a serious eating disorder? To get girls to buy diet crap? To get girls to start a career of yoyo diets, ruining their metabolism to a point where they can hardly eat anything without gaining weight immediately? Until their bellies are so stretched out that they can never be slim again without a "tummy tuck" operation?
- Been there, done that. With the exception of the "tummy tuck". Forget it. I "just quit" my 16 years of starvation diets when I turned 30. Gained 40 pounds in 20 years - and I feel great. Yeah, I went from an emaciated, starvation-diet size 5 to a size 14. So what?
You see, that cigarette had been the only thing to sustain me for the 16 years of my eating disorder. And once you have had a serious eating disorder... you will never be completely free when it comes to food. Never. You can live without touching alcohol or illegal drugs. But you cannot live without touching food.
I would like to think I started smarter than most (not really a smart statement but still).
I never started on cigs, and never smoked cigs. I started with vaping, and will never go on to cigs.
That's exactly what they're models for, eating disorders! And also to give all of us who really were that skinny but not nearly that beautiful inferiority complexes.But I see nothing wrong with a size 14; that's one of the sizes of clothes I have in my closet -- I have clothes from size 12 to size 16, because it really just depends on the season -- after Halloween, I gradually start to need larger and larger sizes, till by New Year, I'm firmly a size 16 -- then spend 3-4 months returning to my 12/14s.
To me that's the sanest way to live, because the fast, "crash" diets are so ungodly unhealthy, and cause a much more severe "yoyo" effect.
I've heard that about eating disorders, and it fills me with utter horror -- it's easy for me to avoid drugs and alcohol, but eating? It's kinda required!!A friend of mine told me that the happiest day of her life was when she figured out that her body was just not meant to be slim -- she said it was like walking out of prison, to embrace her true weight, which was significantly more than most women -- but at that weight, she's happy and fun to be around; she said when she was down to a size 8/10, she was wretched every minute, always hungry but not daring to eat anything but "rabbit food," she called it.
Andria