I lit one up this morning, hated it, but I still smoked it. It's like there is just something there, some reason I want to smoke.
[...] It feels warmer, fiddling with a lighter just feels comfortable and the small crackle and pull of a drag [...]
The ritual of unwrapping a new pack, tearing off that little foil tab inside, the smell inside, tapping, packing, turning one over, the lighter, flicking the ashes, flipping the ...., or crushing it in an ashtray... Whatever your rituals are, all of those fiddly little things are the habitual part of nicotine addiction, and reinforced by the actual chemical part of the addiction. That's one of the reasons it is so hard to quit smoking cold turkey; you're quitting a lot of things
simultaneously. Vaping allows you to break it up into more manageable pieces.
I had to find something (LOTS of somethings) to do with my hands, and it took me about 2 months of serious high-nic chain-vaping to quit completely. In the beginning, I wanted a "real" cigarette all the time. The more I vaped, the less I wanted to smoke. Towards the end, I was only smoking a few cigarettes per week. I smoked my last cigarette one or two days after Christmas. It actually took me a couple of weeks to realize I had quit

. I've tried a drag here and there, but the smoke tastes so awful I can't even fill my mouth with a full drag, let alone inhale that nasty crap.
Good luck!