The wonders of Nicoticket

[Megan Kogijiki Ratchford]

Truer words have never been spoken or as Candid Camera used to state "When you least suspect it, You're elected." The very last thing I was looking for when I met the love of my life was another girl friend. Needless to say all these years later, I still fall in love just a wee bit more with her everyday.

This! I was never going to date anyone else again when I met my now husband and love of my life. I was working three jobs, taking 9 credit hours a semester on my own dime, and supporting my leach parents. I had no time to sleep let alone date. K was patent, he supported me at all times and helped as much as he could and told me he didn't need anything more than my friendship. I was a gonner. We got married as soon as I graduated college and I love him more with each passing day.

 

[tpriest1030]

Are you religious or spiritual at all? Even if you're not, try to find a Celebrate Recovery meeting in a local church. They will help you. Celebrate Recovery is for any hurt, habit or hang up. But it's completely Christian based. So be prepared for that. I'm the encouragement leader at our CR. They help me more than I help them most of the time. And! If they are anything like us down there, all they want to do is love on you.

 

[Megan Kogijiki Ratchford]

Thanks everyone. I ended things with her this morning. Then she brought up some stuff about how she doesn't want to lose me and she's just taking out her stress on me. *rolls eyes*


tpriest, I might take you up on that sometime. I've been wanting to hit the Louder than Life Music and Bourbon festival up there.

Sorry for the giggling but I just had "So, a priest and a profit walk into a bar..." run through my head

 

[Soignee]

Sorry for the giggling but I just had "So, a priest and a profit walk into a bar..." run through my head

Tears run down my face!!!!

 

[tpriest1030]

LOLOLOLOL!!! Funny, my best friend in middle school was a Lord.

 

[TraceyS]

Way to hang tough! You know what is best for you and what you deserve! No sharing there! I had a stressful trip to FL this past summer and my MIL immediately seemed to attack me for smelling like tobacco...it was doodle. Even so, not a great trip and I went and bought cigs when I broke my tank .......I smoked three that night and one the next day....then I went and visited a vape shop and got a new tank and never smoked the others. What freaked me out then and now is that in the past one puff would be all it would take to ruin an almost two year quit. That didn't happen this time. I never looked back at the cigs once I replaced the tank. Those cigs are still in the drawer at home, never a minute of wanting them...vaping works!!! And best with NT liquids!!!

Tracey

 

[TheProphet]

Are you religious or spiritual at all?

I am not. 100% atheist.

 

[solace.discord]

since we're all getting personal and such, I know where you've been and what you're going through now.

I had to make myself let go of the things that triggered the behavior, and surround myself with the things that mattered... to me, for me, eff anyone else.

I also covered myself in tattoos to not only hide past occurrences, but make me stop, look and think, since this can be a totally spontaneous and impulsive action.

there's an underlying cause.. ultimately, you will need to face it, work through it, and let it go.

as for the gank, good for you for standing up for yourself and what you need and what was right for you - absolutely a strong step in the right direction.

we love you.. we're here for you. use us!

 

[a wandering soul]

Thanks everyone. I ended things with her this morning. Then she brought up some stuff about how she doesn't want to lose me and she's just taking out her stress on me. *rolls eyes*

lol i had one of those last week... where i got accused of not loving her and then cheating on her and that it was over! but then 10 mins later came the texts very much like what yours said.

that being said im still with mine... its a different situation... (they always are lol) time will tell...



all i could really add is this..

the only constant is change. so no matter how good you feel today... that will change. no matter how bad you feel today... that too will change. try to embrace accepting the change and learning how to roll with the punches.. this too shall change.. and eventually matter very little in the grand scheme... in a few years you will look hard to find a damn to give about how you feel today.

 

[TheProphet]

I also covered myself in tattoos to not only hide past occurrences, but make me stop, look and think, since this can be a totally spontaneous and impulsive action.

You know, I thought about that. Having my scars covered and such. But I'm not sure I want to do that. Part of me wants them to be visible so I can look at them and tell myself that I beat it, that I survived and it's in the past.

 

[solace.discord]

You know, I thought about that. Having my scars covered and such. But I'm not sure I want to do that. Part of me wants them to be visible so I can look at them and tell myself that I beat it, that I survived and it's in the past.

we all have/find different means to overcome.. to find that sense of self and self respect and self love.. whatever works for you is what matters!

not easy, certainly not overnight.. little steps forward with some back.. I still struggle from time to time, but in the end, I tear up newspapers or pitch a fit like a toddler, or some other coping mechanism to get by.

 

[tpriest1030]

I am not. 100% atheist.

I understand! I was in the same boat myself. I hope it doesn't offend you that I pray for you. Maybe hit up a Unitarian church and see if they have some kind of program like that? My best friend is atheist as well. She loves the Unitarian church in Louisville.

 

[tpriest1030]

I hope you know that Unitarian churches aren't religious. Wasn't me trying to push anything on you. Just trying to help.

 

[TheProphet]

It doesn't offend me at all

 

[LynnNC]

You know, I thought about that. Having my scars covered and such. But I'm not sure I want to do that. Part of me wants them to be visible so I can look at them and tell myself that I beat it, that I survived and it's in the past.

I'd thought about covering my scars up as well with things that meant something to me as well but couldn't either. They are a visible reminder to me of where I've been, how far I've came and where I want to go.

I hope you know that Unitarian churches aren't religious. Wasn't me trying to push anything on you. Just trying to help.

Taylor, how would you describe a Metaphysical Church?

 

[tpriest1030]

Hmmm. It's kinda like Scientology but with psychic mediums, right? Or am I thinking of something else?

 

[solace.discord]

I'd thought about covering my scars up as well with things that meant something to me as well but couldn't either. They are a visible reminder to me of where I've been, how far I've came and where I want to go.



Taylor, how would you describe a Metaphysical Church?

tattoos are also an outlet - pain therapy.. I'm purposely taking my sweet time finishing my sleeve- when the urges become bad enough, I make an appointment. something to show for needing that type of release, if that makes sense.

we're all different.. this is what works for me.. happy to know something, anything works for you!

 

[LynnNC]

tattoos are also an outlet - pain therapy.. I'm purposely taking my sweet time finishing my sleeve- when the urges become bad enough, I make an appointment. something to show for needing that type of release, if that makes sense.

we're all different.. this is what works for me.. happy to know something, anything works for you!

I actually have one I want to cover. I have a design in mind but don't know how to get the design out of my head and on to my wrist. None of the tattoo artists I've been to can copy it to my design. I'll bet your sleeve looks great!! And you make perfect sense!

 

[LynnNC]

Hmmm. It's kinda like Scientology but with psychic mediums, right? Or am I thinking of something else?

Taylor, I don't think its quite like that. I Just don't believe that I have to be in a brick and mortar building to worship. Make sense? And would you please explain your avatar?

 

[motabrownie]

Taylor, how would you describe a Metaphysical Church?

Hmmm. It's kinda like Scientology but with psychic mediums, right? Or am I thinking of something else?

I dont think Metaphysical spirituality necessarily subscribes to one certain religion. It takes a little bit of something from all theologies. Im not religious at all but I wouldnt call myself an atheist. Im more of an agnostic. I believe that if YOU believe there is a God, then there is a God. Who's to say for certain that there is or isnt a God? Not me. Although I have to say, Ive had a few nights where I was certain I saw God so...... LOL.

To each their own...