Fifteen years of trying to quit and failing. Bloody skin from the patch, raw mouth and gums from lozenges and gum. Managing to quit for a few months and then feeling like an utter failure when I couldn't take it anymore.
Last try started 12/27/10. More bloodied arms, rashes, a mouth so sore I could barely eat. I lasted until 1/26/11. After one month of torturous cravings, absolute non-stop-kick-you-in-the-gut cravings 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, I'd had enough. Got more analogs, hated every damn minute of it, even resented the lack of cravings. I hate being controlled.
Next day, the youngest of my twins sat down (I had been crying.) and told me about e-Cigs. She had mentioned it once before when she and her brother and sister had gone to a local hookah bar, saw others using them, and had asked the vapers there what it was all about. I said, "Yeah. Right. I am through trying to quit." She got the laptop, went to this site, gave me the laptop and walked away.
I spent 8 hours straight scouring this forum the first time. More the second. By the end of the next day, I'd ordered my Riva.
A 25-year, 2 pack a day habit was gone the minute I'd taken one vape. The years of feeling like a failure, being treated like a leper and a second-class citizen; the experience of being villified - yet taken advantage of finacially due to my addiction - was done.
So, I guess the last straw wasn't a straw at all, it was a VP, and I couldn't be happier.
I have this forum and its members, and my kids, to thank for that.