hehe... id have it sent from an anon to her email but w/ her name or something in the subject so she opens it..
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On a side note.. I wanted to just say hey, and explain my absence here lately.
First off, its me, not you all!
You guys are wonderful (for the most part) and have truly been good friends to me throughout some troubling and trying times in my life. And I hope that shall continue for some time to come.
I normally am a forum junkie/addict, as they tend to help fill a void... and that void is loneliness. I have suffered from either being extremely lonely or fearing being lonely much of my life. Recently, I realized that the void really wasn't there anymore. And that I was comfortable being by myself. That it was enjoyable at times. It made me think of how so much of my life, I have depended on others for feelings that I am the sole person responsible. This has happened in forums pretty healthily but in relationships often not so healthily. Something clicked where I realized that I didn't need to seek externally for my happiness or feelings or satisfaction. It has been a long time coming, and something that I believe has in a way 'completed' me.
Now don't get me wrong... I am still going to be around.. and likely pretty often.. its just that I don't 'need' to come here now. Just like I don't need a romantic relationship. That being said... its nice to be able to pursue things because you want them, not because you need them.
So here I am... and sorry for my absence.. but I promise its for the best.. and I also promise to not be a stranger.
You guys are awesome!
and so as not to thread derail...
back to more celebration for the birthday 'boy'.
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since we are a cheeky bunch here...
any of you guys who might resent feb 14th... valentines day... find a way to make your gal aware of March 14th. I don't think i can post it here.. but google it..
an ex 'turned me on' to this holiday years back. its one of my favorites.![]()
Just got back from one of the nicest Birthday lunches ever. Lots of good beer, a super good menu and the best company in the world. Just my wife and I. I had a huge bacon cheese burger that was grilled then briefly smoked it was fantastic. The burger had to be a half a pound or bigger and three thick strips of bacon.
So I decided I needed to make a petticoat for a costume I'm working on. Now that I am in the middle of making it, I have so many regrets for incorporating it into my design.
Bad news for me today. The Xpro M80 Plus mod will not be shipping from Hong Kong until after those little people are finished partying sometime later this month. That means I probably won't get it until sometime in March!
I haven't even started making the dress yet. I'm so slow.![]()
If I lived closer I'd offer to help, got a sewing machine gathering dust![]()