Thank you!!!
I read
@Uncle Willie 's awesome first post a long time ago. I still remember my first thought after reading it "this guy is a wise Buddhist monk". Funny but true. I have felt like the thread title my whole life and in the best-est way. I wear it with honor. Willie's post is one of the most honest and sincere I've ever read anywhere. I thought here is a man who has opened his heart and mind to all. Thank you Willie!!! I also thought, Wow, what if all people were like That? Hmmm.
So like Uncle Willie did with his first post I will give this an honest shot in the Spirit of your first post.
Damn the torpedoes and let the cards fall as they may!
I'm jumping ... and this will be very improvisational as I had nothing prepared. However I was a musician so improv is a world I find great comfort in. So I might be "all over". I'm 59, born in 1960. Fast Forward. I spent most of my working life in field service repairing large scale computers and networks. Lot's of travel and I am thankful that I was able to see so much on the company dime. It's always best when it's not your cash. Enough of that, let's get to the meat of me and how I roll in life. That's where my truths are found.
I'm doing like many others ... living life the best I know how, always trying to learn more and working to grow each and every day. I like to say I'm always making the better me. I enjoy finding balance, a yin/yang, in all I do. Or walking the red road. I believe life has what I like to call a "flow and balance" to it. For me finding and maintaining that flow is a great journey in and of itself and requires a great deal of self work on my part. I don't fear that kind of work. I embrace it, full bore. It's hard work. I have the utmost respect for those who do the work to find their own true flow and balance in life.
Some may find this ... ummm strange but I believe our thoughts create our reality. I also believe learning to think properly is a key to a successful life. Knowing ones self is very important to me. Those were some of the things a very wise woman taught me decades ago and they resonated and stuck with me. At the time I didn't really understand "all that" for I was too young, a pup. And it wouldn't be until 2018 that "all that" came flooding back. I took a leap. Last year prompted a very deep dive within and ever since it has been magically unfolding in many wonderful ways. At first it was very difficult for me but over time it's become a place of balance/peace for me. More on that later. Left turn, I'm also a big dreamer with the hugest imagination that runs non-stop.
I feel all should be respected and treated with love and kindness. Respect, love and kindness. We all know there is much division, hatred and intolerance in our world. Yet I do believe, and feel strongly in my heart, that we are all more alike, and connected, than not. I do believe that deep within all desire, and want, the same key ingredient in life. Love. Acceptance of all is a biggie with me. I love knowing others and love learning about people and what they dig. It's a blast. I love helping people and giving of my self in a loving and sincere manner.
I don't roll with any political party, D, R or I. I'm free, but do participate. I don't roll with any specific religion though I've studied many. I'm also free there. I am a very spiritual person with deep core beliefs. Those are like a rock and that rock cannot be split or chipped. It's all mine baby. U-turn, I don't like labels or categories. They sow the seeds of division IMHO. I believe we've forgotten how to treat each other with courtesy and respect despite differences. IMO it's our differences that makes each of us special and unique. I think that is a good thing. Last thing I want to see is another me!
I love to be goofy, and to bring the fun and never lost my inner child (and never will). Some of my ECF posts may have rubbed some the wrong way. I never try to do that on purpose, or to irritate or offend. That would be a true waste of my energy. I don't like to waste energy. I've made a zillion flubs in my life, and I will flub-up much more. But so what. That's life. It's ok.
Living in the "moment" or being in the moment, or the Now, is how I like to roll. The past is gone and the future doesn't exist. Not the same as planning for the future, which I do lol. I only have now so I like to live to the fullest, now. And who knows, any moment may be my last and I can't stand the thought that it wasn't lived fully. I love to learn and learn and learn some more. Serious right turn, I don't do social media. Just not my thing. ECF is, I guess, what I would call my social media. I've made many fantastic friends, and friendships, here. I've been on many other non-vaping forums and you just don't see what we have here. There IS something special here on ECF. The people.
I still find great wonder in life, in our world and universe, and wonder in people, and see things that amaze me each day. I can sit and stare at clouds, or watch birds and critters, or just Be within nature for hours on end and be perfectly calm and at total peace. I enjoy the stillness within my daily hour of meditation. That place is very very special for me. I find the little things in life are some of the most meaningful and precious. Maybe the most. I am thankful for this life of mine, appreciative and grateful too and I wouldn't change a thing (even if I could). My truth.
I never fear putting myself, and how I feel, out there. I feel let the chips fall as they may. I'm an open book and never fearful of those pages being seen by any. I share me. I am who I am.
We're all on this awesome journey of life together so why not make it the best we can ... together. Crap, my wild 21 year old self would not know, or recognize, my current self. That amuses me to no end. I try my best to take life with a grain of sand. Now honestly it doesn't always work that way for me but I consciously work on that. Daily. Life has served some very serious curveballs my way and I do my best to deal with those the best I can in a very healthy and honest way. I think that's much like most.
Since my wife passed away last year I've made it my life mission to honestly know myself and to be the best me. That may sound simplistic. And it's not that I wasn't a good me before. That change just changed me in ways I'm still discovering and likely will continue to until my time comes. Her passing rocked my world to the max. We knew each other since we were young. I am ok with her passing as I know within that her suffering has ended and she is in a better place. And ever since then I've done a lot of deep dive within type of work. At times that is not easy work as it requires me to be downright and brutally honest with myself. I question everything until I am satisfied and then I question some more. For me that is an ongoing and lifelong journey and one I am super happy to be on.
So that's me in a nutshell. I am hopeful I kept the Spirit of your initial post alive Uncle Willie.
Cue Wild Horses...