Major guy. A good friend of us

[imeothanasis]

exelent post critter, I totally agree to all you said!

and I want to add something more. Exersice is the best way to feel young again. I know this because from time to time I stop exersicing and I feel for a long time like sick. Then I start again and I feel strong. The first 2-3 days are difficult and then all go well.
When I say to someone that has to start to exersice, I dont mean that he has to start to run 5 km per day. I mean that everyone can make simple moves that will make his body to rise. A simple example is to open your hands vertical to the body and keep them there for 1 minute. You can also make small circles with your hands while they are in this position. Then you can do other simple exersices and after some days you will feel so big difference that he never imagined. After 1 month your body will ask for some exersize. Also exersice delivers testosterone and serotonin to our bodies.

Major, I know that I ask you more than what you can do right now but your body needs some energy. So do as I told you and do as critter said and go to a doctor. Medicines are made for a purpose.

I don't visit this little area anymore, but this issue and Major transcend genderphilia. Major is the main reason I ever posted on this subforum.

Major, your kindness has gone a long way and still has journeys to make and friends to which to tend in a way that only you can. Please do not undervalue your worth to the people around you.

You never mentioned suicide in your pm and I apologize in advance for aligning you with this, but the darkness you seem to be feeling I recognize as similar. My dad killed himself two years ago. He did everything he could to prepare us (his daughters) for it - requesting our "blessing", etc. It was something he had made peace with before he discussed it with us and my appeal to a different option was lost on him. He found it terribly selfish of me to still want him around when he didn't want to be here. I still get a kick and a smile out of his fatherly poise even in the face of despair. He was always very successful - former college football standout, excellent career, etc - but he truly sunk when he lost a lot of savings in the stock market a few years ago. He became very self-critical and depressed and his marriage suffered, his enthusiasm suffered, his life sunk and he did not have the energy to build around him again the life he had come to value as standard. You see, he felt that he no longer had any utility value. What he didn't realize in the depths of his depression was that his utility value was not strongest through his possessions or what he could give us materially; it was always strongest through the relationships he had with the people around him. That is all any of us truly has - the connection between ourselves and our loved ones. Please don't underestimate that when you find yourself thinking about what you used to do that you can't or don't any more. Or when you think of your value to other people and worry about being a burden. Caring - both physically and emotionally - is an act of love and loving is always a blessing and never a burden.

Major, I hope you don't mind that we are responding given that this was a PM to Imeo, but it's out here now, and I hope you know that you are cared for by people who aren't even active forum users and, no doubt, countless others. Your reach is wider than you know. Hang in there.

And, not to be crass or to encourage something to which you may be resistant, but depression becomes chemical, if it's not already. There are some great anti-depressants out there and there is no shame in trying them the same way one would take a med for cholesterol or some other cellular need. If you are having trouble seeing the value in any of this, then please consider talking to your family doctor about it. From the aforementioned anecdote, I know that you can't stop someone from ending it/willing it to end, but my hope is that you will continue to fight and use all of the resources available to you.

 

[Fanky]

Good morning Major. We all have one life with a second chance. All that matters is the moment. Your life is yours and yours only to create what you want. All that matters is the moment, and in the moment is the miracle of life. Just know that as long as you choose to connect the GG family is here to connect with you.

Imeo's greatest creation is not the amazing vaping devices, but the amazing people his devices have brought together.

Gratitude means being receptive to life. Cheers Major.

 

[Killjoy1]

Well, it's late evening now and you're probably asleep already. So good night, Steve, and may you wake to a glorious tomorrow

 

[rwechsler]

God bless Major! To me, you've always been one of the most important members on this forum and whenever I see that you posted in a thread here in the GG forum, I always jump at the chance to absorb some of the wisdom that you consistently implant into each and every one of your posts. I'm so glad to hear that you're up and out of bed and I hope this upswing in your health and spirit continues!

 

[Major]

First, let me say to you all, thank you for taking the time. Things are so hectic for most of you in the world we live in, it's hard to keep up with our own stuff, much less others. But that's why I love this group - Always ready to lend a hand to folks in need.

I am not one to speak much about personal stuff but since it's out there, let me be brief and tell you where all this came from. I was forced into disability retirement in 2003 due to my spine degrading from an injury on the job in 1982. So I readjusted my focus and moved ahead. In 2006 I was diagnosed with cancer but being blessed to have been real OCD about insurance, I had and still have policies just for that disease going back almost 40 years!

Between that and from a family that has pretty deep pockets, There was no real financial issue as to affording treatment. I have always refused to say I quit or I give in and you have to take that approach with life. Since 2006 I have been told I was terminal twice but I told the doctors, sorry, but you're mistaken. It's not my time yet.

In among all that mess, I have had two heart attacks, a stroke and my kidneys are trying to quit. But I have always refused to give up. It just wasn't in my nature to do so. But not being able to walk really anymore and certainly not drive was a downer. I also learned too that I had to wake every day with the notion that I was gifted another day and to be ready to deal with whatever presented itself.

After some years, even the most determined people can start to question themselves and why they are fighting to stay just to hurt some more and live your world through a 27 inch window (Computer Monitor). That was the trap I fell into to be blunt. I didn't fall all the way as I kept vaping and didn't return to tobacco though. I was just worn out literally from the daily fight for years.

Imeo's Penelope sent by our man Bruce literally snapped me out of it but the most exercising I do is my mind and shutting that down (so to speak) for 2 months and saying "No mas" is what I am fighting back from now. To see some of what you good people shared in this thread helps anyone in need of a pick me up and most certainly me.

I have always felt there was a reason for everything that happens. To be blunt, I would have been horrified 6 months ago if someone told me I would be spilling my personal life on a public post but again, I may never know why but there is a reason why it happened. I truly believe that. As to the moving ahead, which is what I have always done before in my life, it's obvious that's what I must do personally.

This group of people have always made me feel like I was doing the right thing by fighting on. Your posts have re-enforced that to me. And we have work to do! New products, new things on the horizon and always those that need all of us. The children that were in need of our help 6 months ago still need us today and they will tomorrow as well.

I thank you all again and am thankful to be back among my friends. And in keeping with the thread, letr me say no matter your location, Good Morning! It truly is great to be alive!

Major / Steve

 

[rwechsler]

That was beautiful Major, thank you. I'm so happy that you're back on the forum and even happier that your health and mind are back on track! I really missed you friend, so glad to have you back. You're truly an invaluable asset to the forum and it just isn't the same without you! If there's anything I can do to help, please don't hesitate for ONE SECOND to ask.

 

[Major]

Oh and I failed to mention that YES, I "liked" every single post in this thread. Acknowledging stuff that really means a lot to you is a valid reason for that methinks!

 

[Mosin_Sergei]

Good morning, my good friend Steve

 

[MegaDark]

good morning guys

 

[CaptSteve]

Major that was a wonderful post. I cannot tell you how happy we feel to have you again among us. We're all here for you pal

 

[Fanky]

Gratitude means being receptive to life. Welcome back Major,

 

[ggero]

Major .. I want to give you an advice ... "Keep walking"...every minute of our life is worth...I can understand your situation .... Nothing can stops, if we dont want to stop it

 

[Tgoode]

Good morning everyone.

Good morning Major!

 

[fright88]

Steve buddy glad you are back. And I am happy to hear how Penelope has helped you. As with many others if there is ever anything you need please don't hesitate to ask. And you and your family will continue to be in my prayers.

 

[imeothanasis]

good morning Major!!!
Its night there but when you will read this under the daylight

Keep walking buddy

 

[Huffelpuff]

One of my favorite sayings: Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes it's the quiet voice at the end of the day that says "I will try again tomorrow."

 

[Digitaltitan]

Good Morning Major!

Im so glad to hear your back to it, I look forward to hearing even more from you in the future.

 

[imeothanasis]

great saying my dear. I really think that we have to follow all those sayings. They are wise words from wise people

One of my favorite sayings: Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes it's the quiet voice at the end of the day that says "I will try again tomorrow."

 

[k3v1n]

Steve,

I'm so glad to see you have made a turn for the better, life can grind the best of us down and you've had more than most to deal with.

I can only speak for myself but I'm sure most would agree, you have been missed my friend, the place is not the same without you.

I'm glad your back.

 

[thejager]

Major! Hello!