it appears you are more addicted to the choice then the actual reward. or the fact that perhaps you are not on the inside of how to buy and produce your need correctly.
me i started smoking at the age of 12, i am now 43 yrs old. i have been smoke free for 6 months. and have yet to find my vape money consumption be even close to what i spent on analogs.
learn to make your own juice, and how to build your own attys. / coils....
you will be able to spend less then $150 bucks for a years worth of some great vapeing once you have the proper equipment that should run you about $150 bucks for a lot of things to work with.
do your research!!!!
total that is about 300 bucks for a years worth of vape.. when depending on where one lives they could spend that much in a month or less or 2 months on analogs...
i dont know you but in my opinion you seem to have problem that is not so much related to vaping as it is to being a vape consumer of products you want but not necessarily need....