Hey guys,
I have tried everything but for some reason I really enjoy smoking, probably because I have been doing it for so long I don't even remember how happy I was before smoking. I really need motivational words and help from you all to get me back on track. I thought this time I would quit for good and haven't smoked yesterday or the day before but had a cigarette just now and know I made a mistake and will keep trying but I enjoyed it so much that I don't know if I have the will power to quit for good.
I really need to quit because I started having heart issues lately and my toes are turning a dark shade of blue and the edges are becoming hard with the skin falling off. I'm a biology major so I know it is because enough oxygenated blood is reaching those areas due to my smoking habit, and am also experiencing an increase in heart palpation which I know is a sign of bad things to come if I continue this habit as my heart has to work harder to get the blood to the periphery.
I'm not even sure why I can't resist, I understand I am addicted but also am happy when I do other things I enjoy so I know I am not dependent on it however I also know I use nicotine as a way to deal with my problems. I begin to lose my thought clarity the first few weeks or months after quitting smoking and that bothers me the most. I know if I quit for a year I will begin thinking very clearly again but smoking seems to keep my brain active immediately and I'm not the most patient person.
Sorry for the long story but thanks for reading and any advice you can give.
-Yoshistr
I have tried everything but for some reason I really enjoy smoking, probably because I have been doing it for so long I don't even remember how happy I was before smoking. I really need motivational words and help from you all to get me back on track. I thought this time I would quit for good and haven't smoked yesterday or the day before but had a cigarette just now and know I made a mistake and will keep trying but I enjoyed it so much that I don't know if I have the will power to quit for good.
I really need to quit because I started having heart issues lately and my toes are turning a dark shade of blue and the edges are becoming hard with the skin falling off. I'm a biology major so I know it is because enough oxygenated blood is reaching those areas due to my smoking habit, and am also experiencing an increase in heart palpation which I know is a sign of bad things to come if I continue this habit as my heart has to work harder to get the blood to the periphery.
I'm not even sure why I can't resist, I understand I am addicted but also am happy when I do other things I enjoy so I know I am not dependent on it however I also know I use nicotine as a way to deal with my problems. I begin to lose my thought clarity the first few weeks or months after quitting smoking and that bothers me the most. I know if I quit for a year I will begin thinking very clearly again but smoking seems to keep my brain active immediately and I'm not the most patient person.
Sorry for the long story but thanks for reading and any advice you can give.
-Yoshistr