Hey Fran, I am not trying to get into your business but please don’t hesitate to talk to your dr if needed. They will be able to give you something ( even if just temporary) for anxiety that may help you get through this.
My bil did that finally last year after my middle sister passed. It helped him tremendously.
My bil did that finally last year after my middle sister passed. It helped him tremendously.

Thoughts and prayers are with you.