The void is a lot less scary than I imagined it would be.
Anna
Anna
She sings regular. No screaming. No herky jerky crap like Christine Agulara. No whisper singing. Just straight forward regular female singing with a nice endearing female voice. Love it. She reminds me just a little of Chrissie Hynde.
Nope, I respect the power of the void. My therapist made me hang out there for a half hour once and she asked me how it was and I was like, "My worst nightmare that's what."
So of course I got the follow up question: "So.....?"
"Boring. That's what it is. It's a freaking void. There is no one there. It is dark. It has no temperature really even. It just... is."
She told me it might be good practice for me to hang out every once in a while, in case I ended up in PURGATORY."
I told her I'd give it a shot but like, I wasn't holding my breath. I also told her it was probably BETTER than purgatory, I'd have one of them halfwit normies on either side, talking all enthusiastically about Jesus but I'd be able to tell their insincerity and I'd be like "You are so boring you need to have a drug binge, seriously."
Which I NEVER do anymore, not after informing my little brother who I guess ah, looked up to me too much at that time (I had no clue dude, he was like 9 years younger than me) to try MJ because it was "Your drug. You are lazy. You love food. That kinda stuff."
So he did with some chick he then cheated on his gf with, which was just.... I learned my lesson. I mean he's a MUSICIAN he was gonna try it anyway but like at the time it was not so good for me. Him. His GF.
My therapist was not a Christian she studied in India and like well, she was awesome. I think she wanted me to tolerate the void enough to like be reincarnated but you can't put a time frame on bored. Like, ask me if I would rather be bored or have no consciousness, that is a TOUGH call.
Anna
So of course I got the follow up question: "So.....?"
"Boring. That's what it is. It's a freaking void. There is no one there. It is dark. It has no temperature really even. It just... is."
She told me it might be good practice for me to hang out every once in a while, in case I ended up in PURGATORY."
I told her I'd give it a shot but like, I wasn't holding my breath. I also told her it was probably BETTER than purgatory, I'd have one of them halfwit normies on either side, talking all enthusiastically about Jesus but I'd be able to tell their insincerity and I'd be like "You are so boring you need to have a drug binge, seriously."
Which I NEVER do anymore, not after informing my little brother who I guess ah, looked up to me too much at that time (I had no clue dude, he was like 9 years younger than me) to try MJ because it was "Your drug. You are lazy. You love food. That kinda stuff."
So he did with some chick he then cheated on his gf with, which was just.... I learned my lesson. I mean he's a MUSICIAN he was gonna try it anyway but like at the time it was not so good for me. Him. His GF.
My therapist was not a Christian she studied in India and like well, she was awesome. I think she wanted me to tolerate the void enough to like be reincarnated but you can't put a time frame on bored. Like, ask me if I would rather be bored or have no consciousness, that is a TOUGH call.
Anna
Great. Never heard of them, but I've never heard of half of the groups pointed out here. But, that's my failing.
I must be fixated on Aimee Mann today. She wrote Voices Carry after a breakup from a long term relationship. This one is from the soundtrack of Magnolia where she wrote all the songs. Haunting but beautiful, about making bad decisions and unwise choices while expecting some sort of pill/magic/other person to solve your woes.
Very pretty. I shall overlook the tie, given the times.
Yup I remember ties when you weren't even cross dressing. It's a hard look to pull off.
Anna
Yup I remember ties when you weren't even cross dressing. It's a hard look to pull off.
Anna
Try to get a picture of his blue eyes. It’s not easy. Gotta get the sun to shine on his face and he needs to stop acting like a jerk while you stick the camera in his face.King of his domain!!
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He's not happy that there is snow on the ground, doesn't want to be tied out much lately, lol!!
Our dog (the kid's rescue dog, now an octogenarian compared to the kid who OF COURSE left him behind for us-- he was un-houetrainable for about a decade. The apartment finally got him beat he has had like one accident....
Which unfortunately resulted in him tripping and falling on pavement and jamming a molar WAY up into his sinus cavity, resulting in a LOT of blood very rapidly. Thank Goodness the vet we found when we got here was over Covid and close by, so the creature had that all stitched up, and well, he is on some VERY diluted version of Fentanyl (I am not looking at the bottle closely I have no need to know) and he also had a bunch of other teeth pulled but the vet said they were probably making him miserable anyway and a wart removed as well as some old age cysts on his head. He has pretty much been unconscious ever since and well, it cost $500. The lot of it.
You would not darken the door of a Tucson Vet on a Sunday morning without sliding 1K under the door as a kind of "Thank you for seeing me at such short NOTICE my dog will BLEED to death in about 20 minutes flat" type deal.
So apart from puking once, eating and drinking a couple times, he has been curled up unconscious. He is considerably cuter that way-- the wart was really growing at an amazing pace and he was an excellent Not Human Food Eating Dog, and as far as I am concerned, that is not an attractive trait in a dog. Maybe he will forget, but I doubt it that sucker is crafty and smart. 2 years out in the Desert staying alive.
I wonder if WV has quail and I bet they do and I bet that they sort of lay eggs in the ground which means he is going to have a field day in the spring. Based on his behavior when he was at my mom's house and the babies hatched out-- they are the true doggy treat of the desert. I think he caught and ate every last one.
But he seems content enough.
Anna
Which unfortunately resulted in him tripping and falling on pavement and jamming a molar WAY up into his sinus cavity, resulting in a LOT of blood very rapidly. Thank Goodness the vet we found when we got here was over Covid and close by, so the creature had that all stitched up, and well, he is on some VERY diluted version of Fentanyl (I am not looking at the bottle closely I have no need to know) and he also had a bunch of other teeth pulled but the vet said they were probably making him miserable anyway and a wart removed as well as some old age cysts on his head. He has pretty much been unconscious ever since and well, it cost $500. The lot of it.
You would not darken the door of a Tucson Vet on a Sunday morning without sliding 1K under the door as a kind of "Thank you for seeing me at such short NOTICE my dog will BLEED to death in about 20 minutes flat" type deal.
So apart from puking once, eating and drinking a couple times, he has been curled up unconscious. He is considerably cuter that way-- the wart was really growing at an amazing pace and he was an excellent Not Human Food Eating Dog, and as far as I am concerned, that is not an attractive trait in a dog. Maybe he will forget, but I doubt it that sucker is crafty and smart. 2 years out in the Desert staying alive.
I wonder if WV has quail and I bet they do and I bet that they sort of lay eggs in the ground which means he is going to have a field day in the spring. Based on his behavior when he was at my mom's house and the babies hatched out-- they are the true doggy treat of the desert. I think he caught and ate every last one.
But he seems content enough.
Anna
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