Argh long story short I owe SSDI 2.5K.
I was deemed "so irretrievably ill" by SSDI (they didn't even INTERVIEW me, they went off my 7 week misery and completely UNHEARD of like hospital stay where my doc was trying to medicate me into submission instead of putting me back on my old meds, I was manic and I curse a lot unless you can be pleasant, and this guy was like Muslim I think. He had a "no cursing rule" and I was like, "M(censored) F(censored) I am THE MANIC PATIENT! I don't know what piece of (censored) medical school YOU attended, but as a social worker, I need to inform you, AS THE PATIENT I am not here to meet your dependency needs!"
I have this terrible like way of really letting folks know if I hate them but am also smarter than them. NEVER do that to a psychiatrist who has power over you is my recommendation. e5In any case, so I would pretty much beg for Seroquel every visit, then curse and he would toss me out and then add a different psycho med. I was on an involuntary and like you have to be "compliant" with your meds, well you should be. I mean.... In any case, so I finally got the pt rights people to transfer me to the state hospital where they gave me 3000 mg of Seroquel at certain points in time while I detoxed off other meds. The irony was this whole thing was my OUTPT doc not liking my cholesterol on Seroquel, which he NEVER mentioned again. The Mental Health judge agreed to move me if I signed that I would be compliant with outpatient tx for a year, which like, I have missed maybe one Pdoc appt in my life, so I was like, fine.
The assessments didn't look good. They were also inaccurate (I thought). I thought it was rude to state "Looks older than her stated age," I think I said, "You try not sleeping for as long as me, dirt bag, see how YOU look. But you know also mentioned stuff like my inability to change my pad in a timely fashion which is hard when you are all winking between universes and stuff. Or, sitting by the frosted window pane to see the chipmunk and people's shoes, while tearing out your hair, one by one.
I was not violent but I did destroy hospital property. I ripped down all the patient rights signs and painted THE SIGN THAT WAS HERE IS LYING.
I mean they were screwed into the wall, but when ENGRAGED I can get pretty forceful,. Yeah, I needed hand bandages but you don't FEEL pain in that state, and I had my foot for leverage so it all worked out. I liked my signs a hell of a lot better due to truth.
I was kind of a PITA to hospital staff. I called one (formerly anorexic) nurse anorexic when she like, did something, I forget. Former anorexics HATE that .but there are signs. LOL.
Also I was pretty sure that the husband one visit was the late Roosevelt the president, and I was Elanor Roosevelt.
They had a quiet room for the accrediting agency but they "never used it." I BEGGED to go in there so many times and they were like "NO."
So one day I threw every single piece of furniture out of my (understandably, private) room and told them I was making my own and if someone came in I would KILL them. That was the nicest day for both of us, I inhabited Angelina Jolie (before things went all bad but what do you expect if you marry a cheater.)
But yeah so my trustee had to monitor these things and me sending in the papererwork was not kosher. Sigh.
To be fair: drop in bucket. Me and my Trustee are gonna have to go in and set up a payment plan. I am electing my sis next time if there is one (I hope not.) She is a lawyer she keeps track of this crud.
I am done with shopping carts, like I am STEALING them now.; I might need them.
And mix more, since it's well, I have plenty of vape things to do that don't require money like figuring out that Rubex cube of a freaking MTL dot mod tank.
IDK.
One day, I will be under water under the bridge. Isn't that how the saying goes? LOL.
Anna
