Also,
@FranC for the love of God, don't worry about my meds. The one I am running out of is no big hairy thing.
Also there is this event that happens called "Taking your meds every day" that causes you to need them, and then you order more.
You know I discovered like a TON of my meds have been flagged as "not exactly scheduled but we don't like them. It's like, so stupid. One is Seroquel. It was my first, best and only antipsychotic that ever worked. It's had a street value forever, so like, people are uh, selling it... I mean, waddya expect? If you drug prisoners with it (it makes you very sleepy as a side effect I mean I take mine at night unless I am having a moment) but if you do that with prisoners well, they are going to get used to it (it also has a wicked discontinuations syndrome, which means, you don't have to take increasing amounts to get the same effect except coming off it SUCKS it's just like detox but docs hate and disbelieve this and so they call it a "discontinuation syndrome.")
SO OF COURSE IT IS GOING TO HAVE A STREET VALUE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD USE IT FOR WHAT IT's FOR. JESUS. IT'S like the only antipsychotic that works.
Seriously almost EVERY single one of my meds makes me look like a drug dealer now. I will never find another doc and it SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.
I might have to go inpatient at Shepard Pratt, just to get referred to one of their more competent docs by my old doc who now only handles inpatient.
But, for now it just has to be okay. My doc can still "See" me thanks to the virtual world and he is actually a GEHA provider
through this weird exemption.... Maybe I will plan my "vacation" in like 4 months and go inpatient and tell my old pdoc I only said I was like maybe suicidal or whatnot because I needed competence. I mean psych units hate when you do stuff like that but my old doc would just... cope probably and refer me to a subordinate doc of his.
However, psych units are like "
Through the Looking Glass" everything is backwards and it can be a dangerous game.
Anna