Oh I forgot to mention like my STD company called this morning like. They are having a "behavioral health person" review it on June 3. It woke me out of a deep sleep at 7 am because they ae are in freaking CANADA.
Once I wake up, I need to do more interview research and like, figure out more what to do. I was too unawake to like, manage to ask any questions about the whole disability thing. There is no point calling, this is just their process. Not only that, I should figure out the SSDI thing pretty soon probably. Well, things in order I guess. Interview then I will have to make a SS appointment. I am not having this and if SSDI determines me ill, well, they can't freaking continue this aberrant behavior.
I am so tired, I'm just trying to prioritize. I guess if I get denied disability
through my work, I can resign. That would be nice.
Anyway. I just talked the husband out of like, giving the homeless dude he hired for a day to not give him 45 dollar for a bus ticket to Douglas from Tucson because his grandmother died. I was listening to the various contortions about how to do it, and I was like, "He needs to finish his damn letter." So, I called him in. I was like, "Dude, this guy is playing you. He was like, no I don't think so he called me at 2 a.m., blah blah blah." I just looked at him and said, "It is not the 45 dollars I an worried about although he better freaking not come here. If there is a shuttle running from Tucson to Douglas for 45 dollars which I highly doubt then pay for the shuttle FOR him." It was depressing. But of course the dude could not HAVE the shuttle do it but had so many "sort of legitimate" ways to do it. After my husband was like, "Have the shuttle person call" and he called AGAIN with "other ideas" I just shook my head at the husband and was like, "Nu uh, this is over. TELL HIM NO."
Dear God, if there is ONE thing I don't want to have to deal with it's some homeless guy my husband felt sorry for one time and has attached himself to the husband like a leech. It kinda sounded like if the dude was gonna come here for the grandmother his family was gonna lynch him. HIS FAMILY.
Yes, that is the type of person I want to give my money to and eventually have squatting in my house




. GOD.
Feeling free floating ANXIETY TODAY it sucks. I think it was that call. I have no clue with this STD company but I need to BREATHE and remember ain't no one dying today..
GOD. Hopefully.
Anna