Oh my pdoc is going to get a panicked email from me next Tuesday because I will be okay for another week after that and my hope is, like I can figure out more of this telemedicine crud that happens so much I think there are several nearby states who will not even ACCEPT WV patients. That would totally suck. I would ask my AND SHOULD ask one of my earliest like supervisors whether he knows of any good pdocs. Also, a panicked email to my like first therapist, she is in Maryland.
IDK all these freaky rules I don't know about. Like you would be shocked at the information overload and while I don't HATE Preisdente Trump I am not LOVING the fact that he put all this dreadful like opioid prescribing tracking in place.
And yes I WAS an opiate addict "hooked" by "tramadol" for "off label depression like 20 years ago dude, because like they got to market it that way. I do not blame my doc, I do not blame Tramadol, I don't blame anyone. It just HAPPENED. I suppose if it had to not happen again, well, that would be good but everyone KNOWS about opiates EVERYONE. JUST EDUCATE. Yes, there would be drug mills, if only I could now FIND ONE. I am kidding kinda.
Also, you aren't going to die from Opiate w/d TRUST me. You CAN AND WILL die from like benzo w/'d and I'm not happy about it even slightly. So well, IDK. I am gonna have a fit at some people soon. I should probably not try to add to my load but I don't really know who to ask.
I am SLIGHTLY annoyed okay a LOT annoyed at my doc who KNEW eprescribing was around the corner and who LET me JUST GET UP TO 50 mg of freaking Valium which is HELL to stop and the was all like, "Ooo oooooo too many benzos" the minute it was HIS license during one of the most stressful periods of my life. He is gonna get an email/phone call that is sweet... and sour. I will tell him I will GO TO HIS BOARD and say he LET ME NAY ENCOURAGED me to get to that dose of benzos and then sent me off to WV without researching a provider who could meet my needs. I would not enjoy doing it, but I would do it.; Especially if I am in rapid detox over the weekend somewhere. The younger me might bounce back, this me is like "ARGHHH."
I should probably try to free my mind until this weekend and spend most in research and spend most of it like, in research and in ah, someone who will work with me on a reasonable detox.
It's just when I figure the Ambien is like.... this huge thing, it's been horrible and where I might have to get to comparatively, well, I just better not think about it and remember that oh, Benzo detoxes are horrible but that is why God made Clonidine if you are brave and suicide if you are a coward and I HATE being a coward.
BUT MY DOC should have known BETTER DAMN IT.
Anna