So today i realized that i have been struggling lately, last two or three days. Seems i can't get satisfaction... at least not completely satisfied.
I feel like i'm chasing something.... maybe i'm looking for all the nasty stuff in analogs. It is a familiar feeling though, was always 'chasing' something with cigarettes also; never completely satisfied. At first my 24mg juices straightened me out fairly quickly. Now it seems i'm vaping 24mg all day like i was doing with 12mg last week. I did attempt a cigarette last night, couldn't find a lighter that worked so decided to just sleep. (I have analogs laying around wherever they were, i didn't plan on quitting.) Woke up feeling okay before work at 6am, but by 9:30am i was struggling again. Vaped a bunch and still had that feeling of lack. Went outside to vape and the smell of all the people smoking was nasty, but i stood in the smoke to see if second hand smoke would relieve whatever this is, but no relief just smelled gross after that.
Heck i even tried getting some exercise; went for a walk which some how turned into a jog (i haven't jogged in at least 12 years) for a little while. Tried upping caffeine (i find myself craving soda less lately; so i had some coffee), was slightly better... but still chasing something. Switched flavors of juice a few times, upped/lowered voltage/resistance, puffed inhaled tried it all...
I don't have any medical issues i know of beyond high blood pressure; blood pressure much better the last two weeks pulse still a tad high though. Was diagnosed as depressed as a teenager, but what teenager isn't and that was 18 years ago... No life changing things going on lately...
Should i go to 36mg?
More sleep? (i am sleeping more than i use to... and sleeping way better! Only wake up at night rarely, use to wake up several times at night)
Just wait it out, like it's a phase?
Should i ? Any suggestions?
I feel like i'm chasing something.... maybe i'm looking for all the nasty stuff in analogs. It is a familiar feeling though, was always 'chasing' something with cigarettes also; never completely satisfied. At first my 24mg juices straightened me out fairly quickly. Now it seems i'm vaping 24mg all day like i was doing with 12mg last week. I did attempt a cigarette last night, couldn't find a lighter that worked so decided to just sleep. (I have analogs laying around wherever they were, i didn't plan on quitting.) Woke up feeling okay before work at 6am, but by 9:30am i was struggling again. Vaped a bunch and still had that feeling of lack. Went outside to vape and the smell of all the people smoking was nasty, but i stood in the smoke to see if second hand smoke would relieve whatever this is, but no relief just smelled gross after that.
Heck i even tried getting some exercise; went for a walk which some how turned into a jog (i haven't jogged in at least 12 years) for a little while. Tried upping caffeine (i find myself craving soda less lately; so i had some coffee), was slightly better... but still chasing something. Switched flavors of juice a few times, upped/lowered voltage/resistance, puffed inhaled tried it all...
I don't have any medical issues i know of beyond high blood pressure; blood pressure much better the last two weeks pulse still a tad high though. Was diagnosed as depressed as a teenager, but what teenager isn't and that was 18 years ago... No life changing things going on lately...
Should i go to 36mg?
More sleep? (i am sleeping more than i use to... and sleeping way better! Only wake up at night rarely, use to wake up several times at night)
Just wait it out, like it's a phase?
Should i ? Any suggestions?