I have a long ... story i've been thinking about posting for a while but never got around to it. It's pretty long and intertwined with why I started smoking cigarettes heavily in the first place.
Not sure if anyone will care, but here we go. It's therapeutic.
In my early 20s I was living the life. Everything was perfect and I was riding that high. I paid off my student loans at 21, bought at a house at 22, and a brand new car at 23. During one of those years I spent 30k on electronics/video games/toys. I literally had more cash than I knew what to do with and I was
really enjoying life.
Over the next 2 years that completely changed. I went into depression, considered ending it all, and lost almost everything.
My parents split up and my mom ended up cheating on my dad with a coworker. She used to call me in the middle of the night. I would go pick her up because her alcoholic husband beat her. She was diagnosed with COPD and as a result of his beatings, PTSD. I finally managed to convince her to move in with me, but she was jobless and fully disabled. Took me a year fighting for her case, appealing to the federal tribunal so she would get disability payments. This broke my finance, put me behind in bills. She had no income, needed expensive care, and I had to pay for us both to survive.
The stress from all these things is what put me from an occasional/social smoker to hitting 1.5-2 packs a day. Sometimes more.
I decided to bring her to visit family. While we were there my home flooded. Insurance didn't cover anything. I literally lost all my physical belongings with the exception of what I had brought with me to visit my family. Already in a bad situation I didn't have money to fix the place up. I was pretty much homeless.
Here is what my bedroom looked like after they had to rip everything out and clean the mold:
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For the next year and a half I lived with family. They slowly helped me get myself back on my feet. The stress made me lose 14 inches on my waist size. I was huge before then, and without changing anything I just started shedding weight. It was likely around 100lbs.
I met a girl there, saw her for the better part of the year. My mom decided to move back with our family. I had to drive back to my hometown to help my mom switch over her license/health care/banking, I went back to my home for 2 weeks. My girlfriend cheated on me and all that ended. It was toxic. She used me basically for fancy gifts, dinners, and as a wallet.
6 months later I met the love of my life. We spent a year between my family's basement and her place. Finally she convinced me to move back to my place, that I was still paying the mortgage for. Things were rough as she didn't have a job when we moved and that's when I decided to start vaping.
I checked my bank account one morning and I had enough money for cigarettes until my next pay. I was smoking ~$340-$400 worth a month. Then I realized that meant eating toast and canned food for a week. That's when I decided that I loved this woman too much to put her through it. I couldn't afford to give her what she deserved and continued smoking.
I pulled out my old MVP2, 3-4 year old e-liquids and vaped until I got paid. When I did I placed my order for a new set up and never looked back.
Why did I start vaping? Because my spouse deserved better.
I thank her every day for giving me a reason worth living for. If we had the cash i'd marry her right now.