I love electronic cigs. I love trying the different flavors, the different atties and batteries, the cleaning and maintaining equipment, etc. I love the whole process. But for some reason, my dumb ... keeps going back to the real thing, even though I HATE them. I don't understand.
I bought my first ecig in June of 2010. Used it for a week and went back to analogs. I tried another, the Vapor King, and again, I was on and off. January 1st, 2011, I decided this was it, like everyone else when they have tons of new years hopes. I bought an Ego and fell in love with it from day one, I just knew this was it. I made it 2 weeks, longer than I've ever made it without slipping up. I hated the smell of analogs and everything was going really well. Day 15, I played a show with my band and I'm so used to having a cigarette when I get off stage, I went ahead and said who cares, I'll probably hate the taste anyway, I'll let myself have it. I lit up...hated the taste, hated the way it stuck in my mouth and I drank tea, ate food, everything I could do to try and get that nasty taste out of my mouth. I convinced myself that after that, there's NO WAY I would go back to analogs, and even felt good about slipping up and reminding myself how nasty analogs really are.....fast forward 3 days and I'm buying a pack, completely returning to my old habits and my e-cig is sitting in my room collecting dust. Here's the problem...I have no idea why. I honestly don't. I used to smoke 3 packs a day, which I slowly cut down to around 2, and then about 1.5 packs per day. As soon as I bought that pack, I went back to my old habits and I've been smoking around a pack a day since then. I don't understand why, even though I love ecigs much more, they taste way better and I feel like .... when I smoke analogs, I keep going back!?? I'm so disappointed in myself and not only do I feel like a failure, I feel like a dumbass, because I don't understand for the life of me why I'm doing this to myself when I hate the cost, smell, taste, and hassle of analogs. Anyone got any advice or input or anything? Thanks in advance for any replies.
I bought my first ecig in June of 2010. Used it for a week and went back to analogs. I tried another, the Vapor King, and again, I was on and off. January 1st, 2011, I decided this was it, like everyone else when they have tons of new years hopes. I bought an Ego and fell in love with it from day one, I just knew this was it. I made it 2 weeks, longer than I've ever made it without slipping up. I hated the smell of analogs and everything was going really well. Day 15, I played a show with my band and I'm so used to having a cigarette when I get off stage, I went ahead and said who cares, I'll probably hate the taste anyway, I'll let myself have it. I lit up...hated the taste, hated the way it stuck in my mouth and I drank tea, ate food, everything I could do to try and get that nasty taste out of my mouth. I convinced myself that after that, there's NO WAY I would go back to analogs, and even felt good about slipping up and reminding myself how nasty analogs really are.....fast forward 3 days and I'm buying a pack, completely returning to my old habits and my e-cig is sitting in my room collecting dust. Here's the problem...I have no idea why. I honestly don't. I used to smoke 3 packs a day, which I slowly cut down to around 2, and then about 1.5 packs per day. As soon as I bought that pack, I went back to my old habits and I've been smoking around a pack a day since then. I don't understand why, even though I love ecigs much more, they taste way better and I feel like .... when I smoke analogs, I keep going back!?? I'm so disappointed in myself and not only do I feel like a failure, I feel like a dumbass, because I don't understand for the life of me why I'm doing this to myself when I hate the cost, smell, taste, and hassle of analogs. Anyone got any advice or input or anything? Thanks in advance for any replies.