I made it! My bonus daughter got me the car and was here in time to get there on time. I hate being late. Therapist says I need to quit beating myself up LOL Ya think?
Uh oh rant coming on LOLThat's called "stating the obvious", Nyxie. Did he mention any specific ways to do that, or did he just make that moronic statement. Don't mention any specifics, I was just wondering if he had gone into detail.
The rant was fine, Nyxie, it's good to let it out. I'm glad that she went into detail with you, now you have something to think about and what's the best way to do it.
Does anyone ever just want to run? I tried hiding, but it didn't work...OK it did work for years, but I don't think I can pull that off again. Now I just want to run away...anywhere quiet, where people aren't demanding things from me. I managed to just go to the bank today without getting on the interstate and driving till I ran out of gas.
Bad day.
Yep I ran , it didnt work :-( I still had to deal with crap. Now it is just different crap. I think the hardest thing to do is learn to say NO when people demand things from us. I am learning that and still fail miserably at it sometimes. Baby steps I guess.
I hope you get a little relief when you start seeing the Dr. I wish I could give ya a hug!
I use to live on a dead end street at the end of a small sub division. I loved it there!!!
I still had neighbors but was sort of isolated---the best of two worlds.
EDIT: And only about five minutes from milk. LOL
Yes that is the problem we have been going over this for a few weeks now and I just can't bring myself to bound my Mother LOL.
Ok I meant make a boundary , I read that again and it just sounds very wrong LOL.
BTW - the new meds put me to sleep early, but then I woke up at 2am. I read for awhile, hoping it would put me back to sleep, but i finished the book and I'm still awake! Oh well, guess I'll give it a few more nights to see if it works better and then contact the Dr again if it doesn't. I just want to get a normal nights rest! Maybe it would be better to be depressed, but well rested ! I'm tired of being tired, ugh.
I finally moved 3 hours from my mom. She offered to give me 5 acres of her property so I could be close. NOOOOOOOOOO.Yes that is the problem we have been going over this for a few weeks now and I just can't bring myself to bound my Mother LOL.
Ok I meant make a boundary , I read that again and it just sounds very wrong LOL.
I ran - twice, once from my parents when I was 18 - it was good for me to be away from them. 2nd time was from my angry husband, very good thing! Running from my parents only ended up delaying the inevitable - I had to deal with them eventually, which I'm doing now, but I think I needed age and perspective in the intervening years. Overall, running has both worked and not worked for me. My issues definitely follow me, but the forced changes that come from running have also helped me confront some of my issues. IDK it may work for some and not others...
My hubby has told me I will never get my son if I leave. But he thinks I should be able to wake up and just make up my mind to have a good day, and it will be OK. I must be good at hiding things, because I've been like this for a while now. Just too hard to hide now.
Do you mind sharing what meds you are on for sleeping? My Dr put my on Neurontin (sp) that pretty much knocks me out all night along with the 1mg of Atavan I take.
Thanks Atlas. I think he's scared. His sister had depression problems, and committed suicide. his mom has been all but disowned by us because of her ongoing addiction. He's scared he will lose us too, but he said he'll go to marriage counseling with me, so we'll see. Not holding my breath though.