10/22
#2
Im ok.
There's A lot of bad things happening here lately. And I'm trying to stay positive...
My grandmother (who raised me)fell 2 days in a row… They finally get her to the hospital back home ...and she gets transferred to Bristol Tennessee hospital. She has a really bad head wound she fractured her hip when she fell busted her head open .... But they're more concerned about everything else her lungs her liver or kidneys…and I live three hours away and finances won't allow me to go, Work won't let me go, and I'm a total wreck.
Work is a total mess. My boss decided not to give me my promotion he promised me so I went job hunting…
Now, I'm going to be working two jobs. one in the morning and one in the evening. I'm never going to have time with my kids. With one job I still barely see them. I'll be working at a retail store from 9 to 2 and then picking the kids up from school at three and then going to Subway at five and working till 12:30AM. But I'm also worried that if I do pick up an extra job my benefits will be cut....
My landlord is charging me an extra 50 in RENT because I have two kids. He says maximum capacity for a two bedroom apartment is two adults OR one adult and one child… We have crap heat in this house so the electric bill IS going to go up over $100 just for winter. Only 3 old baseboard heaters in whole apt. And were barely making bills as it is, this second job was hopefully to get me caught up and I have Christmas money ...
Where I live I have no family, no friends, the less people you're around the less drama you have to deal with… But it work I feel like I'm in middle school so that doesn't really matter either. And now my grandmothers five hours away for me in a hospital possibly dying and I can't go see her.
And long, irritating, depressing, whining on my part doesn't make it any better which is why I try not to socialize very much. I'm sorry. But I hate talking about bad things…because it does me no good... And that's just the tip of the iceberg. Sorry to bring such a dark cloud over the thread ...
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