What astonishes me (now) is like how anyone starts in the first place. I mean, I did not care for the "taste" at all starting out. It took someone teaching me to inhale (yeah, yeah) for me to really "get" into it, but what amazes me is how I actually managed to enjoy it enough to get hooked. Either the effects are almost instantaneous on some of us, well it still is weird.
I mean, I had a freaky, stupid rationale to start, which included "I'm sure it will be easy enough to quit once I am back on US soil" (that had to be one of the worst predictions I ever made) but it wasn't the taste really, or even the effects that did much for me to start with.
I am afraid I usually enjoy my first cigarette no matter how long the break from it has been, I mean I have the kind of brain that just associates effects to taste pretty strongly so they never taste like burning rubber, asphalt, or any of the usual suspects. I've had plenty of cigarettes taste AWFUL (that happens when you are up to 3 ppd) but like my FIRST cigarette? It's usually heaven.
It's also why I don't even bother trying tobaccos, no point, if anything they'd probably make me want to smoke more, but I really don't GET the initial cigarette thing, I don't really understand how anyone pushes through it and my first real inhaled cigarette well that time is pretty hazy. But, I guess like, somehow I just pushed through.
That's why the government probably hates the teen group of vapers so much. Like, apparently I was willing to "push through" that initial yuck I guess, I was dumb and stupid, but now that smoking is like a social pariah type thing, you just like see less adult smokers being born.
I suppose my dad being a smoker didn't hurt I mean, I was his favorite kid and while he was ah, "quitting" for my mom, well he'd take me to the NIH and like scoop butts out of the ashtrays out of the elevators before taking me to the lab and like, I'd pipette and stuff while he finished up experiments.
I think that's probably why I find the smell of smoking sort of comforting generally, even though I KNOW my husband should switch and all, I still find his cigarette stink not even remotely upsetting, in fact I kind of like it.
I don't know, it's weird.
Anna