Well, y'all, I'm hanging in there by the hardest right now. I worked overtime for a day, will be home for a couple, and then back out to another base and then another base to cover for people who are out. Can we talk about a little stress??? You guys are right. I've been VERY hard on myself, and right now I just can't do that and remain sane. I haven't been at home long enough to get my hands on juice with a higher Nic level. BUT, I refuse to give up on this journey, and somewhere down the line, it WILL get better.