Just an update. Today has been a bit better. I won't tempt fate by saying I'm past it but it might be calming down.
Thanks again for all the support and kind words. I still haven't touched a cigarette and still, bizarrely, have had no desire to through all of this. I don't blame any of this on vaping unless it's through my own choices (high nic liquids for example).
I have been on lower nic the last two days and haven't had a repeat of that really horrible night (touch wood). I don't know if the lower nic has helped, I DO know I have vaped a lot more because of the lower nic.
Anyway, I don't want to bore anyone with all this stuff but since people have been kind enough to comment and offer advice and words of support I thought it would be the right thing to do to give an update.
My thanks to you all, I love the people on this forum. There is so much talk always of how bad people are in fact that's all the news is about every single day but nobody ever hears about the good side of people though in places like this it's everywhere to see.
We'll both hang in there and be alright.