/Sighs, as a Canadian I soooooo used to love Marlboros. We can not buy them here. I could buy Camel Lights,, or Winstons, but when Canadian cigs were about $6.75, a pack of Camel Lights were about $10.25 and I smoked 2 packs a day. That hurt. I hated throwoing away $0.05 like that.
I lived in Negril Jamaica in the 1980s for a year when Negril was still so new, so exciting, so not a tourist trap but my American bf/partner at the time owned a rather large resort there and we had really nice cottages for rentals. Yoou could not buy Marlboros there either, yet worse, not even Camels. They had rather disgusting tobacco, much like Canada. So I used to grab all the Americans coming though with cartons of Marlboros and I would quickly grab them and give them a a $150US cottage for the night if tey gave me their carton of Marlboros and i swear, that whole year I never was without..
So I tried my first tobacco juice a few weeks ago and looked for the Marlboro/Camel tasting juice and found it all vile. Ah perhaps it wasnt the best juice, I tend to believe a lot of us in our mid/late 40s/50s who were heavy smokers came from a time were many might have had undiagnosed anxiety issues, sometthing that wasnt spoken about then.
I can relate to myself in hindsight. No one has ever said I have, nor has any doctor, but I look back to my teens as a female before I began to smoke. My family life was highly dysfunctional under great emotional stress and I bit my nails. Down to the quick. Till they were sore and occassionally bled a bit, yet the rest of me was put together very well. But I could not stop biting my nails. I began to smoke and one day I looked at my nails and i could see that for the first time in my life, as short as it might have been then that I had nails growing. I believe now, I did suffer some form of anxiety and the cigarettes I took to like a duck does to water, and I smoked pretty heavily from the first week or so.
Ironically I had beautiful nails and it was often said I could have been a hand model.....no one would have believed it had they seen them before I smoked.
I smoked all of my life.
I could never handle drugs at the doctors, dentists, etc, that made me hyper as it would make me full of anxiety. That sort of anxiety a mother feels when her child is late and she knows that hes dead in a car accident somewhere. That sort of anxiety, but even worse. Couldnt smoke {Other stuff}for the same reason. Gave me a feeling of anxiety I hated. Could never quit and like many vapers, tried everything but was never successful at it until I discovered vaping. And even vaping I am never without a device in my hand.
Never would be described as an "anxious" person but I believe its there. Perhaps I hide it well, I cant say but it would go a long way for me in describing why I always smoked heavily and Vape quite so as well.........
I bet if many considered this, they might come up with the same thoughts about it.......