Oh... learning to fly is now running through my brain.
I may have to run for office because I am beginning to believe I am unemployable. Head doc clearly said he was out of town and he showed UP at my temporary work place at 1:30. After I sent my email.
I left before whatever was going down was going down. Because I have really reached the self loathing stage. Even though my letter was factual and true.
I have been fired before. I have been fired SO hard from one place, security escorted me to get my belongings. But here's the thing, I hated that job. I mean... I bet getting fired from a job that is ALMOST perfect besides the sociopath next door, well, when I said I wanted tor retire there, I MEANT it. I LOVE Douglas.
None of my emails even talked about dogs eyes being gouged out (although I stand by that post, and it's educational too.)
But I was as professional as I know how to BE. I know I will likely actually win an EEOC case but that's not what makes me happy.
My new 'temp" location sucks about as hard as I expected it was boring and lame. UNTIL HEAD DOC SHOWED UP.
So yeah, self loathing is here and I expect it to hang out for a while. But there is literally nothing I can do about it. Because. as my husband cannot seem to comprehend., my personality a) values harmony and REALLY values it but b) not to the point of ABUSE and then I get all up in your grill somehow. Because I SO believe if you could just cease being a jerk, harmony would be restored.
So yes I suck. Not for the not humanizing animals,. that was LEGIT. But for this stuff... also legit but impossible, I JUST SUCK SO HARD.
Maybe I will muster up a spine soon but just now I just WANT go give up./ Yoga soon though. This morning was not auspicious.
Anna