You know I am not a VAIN person (okay that's a lie but I'm not THAT vain) but when my husband tells me (during my benzo taper that isn't even WORKING) that I must be pregnant and he KNOWS that is not possible, a) I am going to cry.
He's like PERSON number 5 now. ONE lady even said "NO REALLY?" and CAME OVER AND FELT MY STOMACH,
I had a heath condition that caused severe bloating and sure, some went away but it was for DECADES not all of it did. I'm REALLY REALLY sick of people asking me if I'm pregnant. Its just... unfortunate for everyone especially me. Plus if five people SAY it, how many people mean it.
It's so unfair. I can do all the yoga I want and it' doesn't help. I just get muscles ON my bloated stomach.
Today has just been crappy ANYWAY. I was like, "F IT. If that's what my husband THINKS so much, I can save up for a tummy tuck in Nogales ,AZ. I actually WENT and researched clinics, that is how mad I WAS. I EMAILED some of them.
Like, I'm sure this is a TERRIBLE idea and whatnot, and it probably merits a good long talking to therapist number one for a long time about MAH FEELINGS (which ALSO costs me 200 bucks, and she gives me a discount rate because she is my spiritual mommy and has been my intermittent therapist since oh, I was 17.)
MY husband is SO EXPENSIVE. He can't be that autistic surely he was doing it to be mean? IN any cause though, I'm super ...... off. I kind of wish he would leave. When I get my actual proper benzo taper from my doc, like, I might tell him to come back after the house is roofed in August because I'm sure it will SUCK.
I should probably also delay that decision until 6 weeks after the taper (benzo tapers just make you want to die) but STILL.
So but yeah..... Maybe no benzos for a bit. I should also do some research because I would have exactly these questions of my clinic: can we not do opiates and use the nice W? Will I be able to do yoga afterward? Will anyone ever ask me if I'm pregnant again? EVER?
I am telling you IT is the worst. I bet half of Tucson thinks I am pregnant but no one talks to each other in Tucson.....
Oooh I just got a birthday card from my MIL with a 25 dollar check. It is so going in the fund.
Husband valiantly trying to act normal.
Yeah, maybe he can try that... In a month.
Anna
