Worries at bedtime rarely pan out to be nearly as bad as was thought morning comes. Exhaustion exacerbates doom and gloom.
When I notice I'm getting extra gloomy, I can usually say to myself, "Eh, you're just tired," and then ignore the mutter of demons till it's time to sleep.
I actually think Rush IS! OMG when he went deaf from his like, pain med thing and had to go to rehab and then recant all his horrible statements about addicts like, I was rooting for him the whole time.
I'm actually slightly deaf, from opiate stuff. I have never heard "well" but background noise drives me crazy and like, certain bands of the spectrum I sort of miss. Background noise is the worst.
But Rush is only bombastic because, well, I suppose if I had access to that kind of information like, I would be too.
Back when I was a liberal (I was in my late 20s okay) my husband would come home EVERY night on purpose and tell me stuff Rush said at his work. We would argue. I finally told him I had not married Rush Limbaugh and I was quite sure even if I had he got it all out of his system at WORK and like, didn't torment his wives with it, so he knocked it off.
To be fair, maybe Rush DID torment his wives, because it is wives PLURAL and like, more than two.
Anna
Bah. You're old. The older you get the less you worry. OMG I used to be SO BAD. I catastrophized like crazy if someone was 10 minutes late I was planning the funeral! I remember the first time I knocked that off, I was watching some tidal wave special and like, it was gonna wipe out the east coast. I started mentally packing, locating the kid, and like, then I listened to the expert's voice. It was like THRILLED, like that was his THING. He was all like, "I can't wait."
Out of nowhere, this really sane thought washed through my brain. It was like, "I can worry about that WHEN it happens." Not even IF, but when. It felt so good. Yah, I moved but not for the tidal wave.
I started writing my catastrophes down to challenge them. Like, it was GREAT. Life is, so bad stuff happened, but like, NONE of the things I wasted time worrying about. I am a worrying EXPERT. When I worried about death, I just sat there and mentally like, practiced it, until I was like, "I am ready."
I'm usually more fearless it's just a LOT is going on (including my benzos being F'd which to be totally fair I have had ENTIRE decades without benzos OR worry but life's been, eh.)
I used to have panic attacks so bad, I would fall over! One time, on the way to Social Work school (yeh ironic I also know) I had one so bad, some homeless dude stopped to make sure I was okay!! It was Baltimore that NEVER happens. I musta had a "I am dying" look on my face or something.
I suppose my stomach is the least of my worries.
What pisses me off about valium is it TOTALLY fixes my essential tremor. I mean to the point people were noticing.
I should have good things. Well, IDK I guess I talk to doc fairly soon.
But also yes, my husband is probably a saint or whatever. But you know, he married it. Believe me when I say I did not put on "dating airs." He knew what he was getting.
Anna
Out of nowhere, this really sane thought washed through my brain. It was like, "I can worry about that WHEN it happens." Not even IF, but when. It felt so good. Yah, I moved but not for the tidal wave.
I started writing my catastrophes down to challenge them. Like, it was GREAT. Life is, so bad stuff happened, but like, NONE of the things I wasted time worrying about. I am a worrying EXPERT. When I worried about death, I just sat there and mentally like, practiced it, until I was like, "I am ready."
I'm usually more fearless it's just a LOT is going on (including my benzos being F'd which to be totally fair I have had ENTIRE decades without benzos OR worry but life's been, eh.)
I used to have panic attacks so bad, I would fall over! One time, on the way to Social Work school (yeh ironic I also know) I had one so bad, some homeless dude stopped to make sure I was okay!! It was Baltimore that NEVER happens. I musta had a "I am dying" look on my face or something.
I suppose my stomach is the least of my worries.
What pisses me off about valium is it TOTALLY fixes my essential tremor. I mean to the point people were noticing.
I should have good things. Well, IDK I guess I talk to doc fairly soon.
But also yes, my husband is probably a saint or whatever. But you know, he married it. Believe me when I say I did not put on "dating airs." He knew what he was getting.
Anna
Am I the only one that sometimes has to stop and think what planet I'm on?
No.
Also, greetings that start with "Sarah greets you from the Planet Earth!" make me want to freaking puke. We ALL know what planet you are on Sarah, and it's not unifying to know that yes, you TOO are from the planet earth.
There is that saying "A mind can be so open that it's vacant" and I think that EVERY single time. "Greetings from the planet Saturn and it's true" I could deal with.
But that "greeting." No NO NONONO it's turning into a THING now too. People are all doing it like it's COOL.
It's not.
Anna
im from the planet turf...
See that I am perfectly fine with and it makes me think of Golf. I played one time for some company thing my dad had, it was hot, I got sunburned, there was nowhere to pee. I won the prize for Biggest number of hits, or strokes or whatever and it was a bottle of wine and they did not know what to do (I was like 15) so they gave it to my dad and he did not share. I EARNED that bottle.
So planet turf is just fine with me. But come on, I'm nuttier than Nutella at the moment and you don't hear me going on about being from Earth. I know where I AM.
The more interesting questions are "How come? Why me? What did I do? Is there a way to get off?"
Etc.
Anna
So planet turf is just fine with me. But come on, I'm nuttier than Nutella at the moment and you don't hear me going on about being from Earth. I know where I AM.
The more interesting questions are "How come? Why me? What did I do? Is there a way to get off?"
Etc.
Anna
It's the EMOTICON that inspires fear! I figured it out, good COVERAGE!!
I might start using it but I'm not that kinda gal. That emoticon is the equivalent of "I am a middle school aged girl, telling you "You are weird, possibly FAT, and definitely dressed incorrectly."
No I did not enjoy middle school in case you were wondering.
Anna
I might start using it but I'm not that kinda gal. That emoticon is the equivalent of "I am a middle school aged girl, telling you "You are weird, possibly FAT, and definitely dressed incorrectly."
No I did not enjoy middle school in case you were wondering.
Anna
Wait--are Sarahs known for this? Am I an outlier among Sarahs? I have never bothered to identify the planet from which I hail when meeting someone. I must be doing my name wrong.
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